Headache

I didn’t sleep well, and I woke up feeling a touch of a headache I need to address before it becomes a migraine.  With my luck it will turn into a migraine that has me in all sorts of bad ways.

That said I wasn’t very creative, but I need to get on top of that. It always seems that chaos pops up to have a good time when I want to have a breakthrough.  That and I am a hot mess, sometimes, and other times I have clarity.  Damn, it’s hot in this building. I feel extra warm and that annoys meSo I took the pain meds and hopefully I’ll be in shape soon.  Need to make my plans a lot better.  Will discuss that later.

 

Happy creative endeavors.

Goals

I need to set some projects into stronger rotation in my days, and that also includes this blog. I took a seminar on Friday about projects, and effective communication, despite the fact that these posts can be spur of the moment, there is something to be said for a focused, thought-out post.

That said, it’s Sunday, I’m a bit moody, and tired. It leaves me little room for putting things together, and I’d rather be gaming.  Since I’m not gaming, all I can do is put some effort into posting

Little writing got done this weekend, and I am reminded that I am not happy that. If I am to change this aspect of my weekends, I need to change my attitude. Writing is a passion, but it is also an investment. I need to invest in myself on a daily basis, even if it’s twenty minutes a day, at the very least I know effort was placed towards something I love.

Keep in mind each writing task is a separate project. For example, the blog gets its twenty mins, then the novel gets twenty mins, and so forth. I gotta get myself together.

Happy creative endeavors.

A Thursday

I got the writing I wanted done yesterday, and I enjoyed it. Felt good, and went on to do a little more writing. Woke up today with a new idea in mind I need to jot down in a few mins. Ideas seem to happen when I’m the least focused on them. That makes me a bit of a dervish. I think this will be a screenplay, as I promised myself to write three of them this year, or at least do the first 25 pages (act one) of each of them.

BTW, I just stopped to write it down so that I can not hold this idea in my head too long.  It seems like a lot of ideas can get left in the dust, BUT writing them down helps. Also getting the time to set things in motion will help.

Gonna do some more writing, but needed a blog post for my day.

Happy creative endeavors.

A Wednesday

Today calls for light rain, and that’s fine. I did the writing I said I was going to do in yesterday’s post. It was not what I expected.  For clarity, I said I was going to write some poems from the main character’s (and allies) perspective to help me see who they are in this novel.

Writing a poem from the protagonist’s perspective proved to be tricky and broken. Broken because I kept getting distracted repeatedly. I did get a point of view, and I hope to have time to work on this more.  As a main character I know he’s going through phases, and I need to address the final phase as a hero, which he may, or may not understand and want.  I need to “hear” what he’s saying.

The allies have proved to be easier. I wrote something already on one of them, and decided that it was the right way to go with that character.  That character is a trickster archetype, so my notes reflect exactly what I want to say. I still need to write a poem from his POV because I feel it will help me ease into his thoughts better.

The third character is tricky because in my notes I knew what I wanted and who I said she was, and the fact that she shifts a lot in her her persona and actions (her archetype is shape shifter). I suppose this is more like a duality, but I understand where her conflict lies.

Another ally to work on, for the moment, is also a bit of a shapeshifter archetype, since he has opposing viewpoints, but isn’t evil. He’s more of a reluctant ally, and while I can hear his voice, I can’t nail down his point of view yet.  I do think if I look back at what I wrote for him (for the novel), I’ll hear his voice better.

Happy creative endeavors.

 

 

A Tuesday

Yesterday I wrote a couple of poems from other character’s point of views. One of them I struggled with, and wrote two versions, where I felt this antagonist was complex, and kind of tragic. I think I have sympathy for this character. She gonna be a hot mess, which is good for the story. The third character is a bit of a willful, controlling type.  It was funny that two of the three characters have dialog playing around in my head, and I know already how they feel about the first antagonist. This should prove interesting to write down.

I need to work on the protagonist, and his allies next. Mainly because I want to see who they are, and how they would react to situations the way I know how the villains will act. The hero I know goes through ups and downs, however I want to do a before and after poem to see where he goes.  Allies 1 and two may have some duality as well.

I mostly  know how the antagonists would react to nearly any situation (say you left them a peanut butter sandwich). I know who’d eat it, I know who’d put demands on the quality of the food. and who would be offended.

I’ll get to that.

Happy creative Endeavors.

 

A Monday

Before I sipped this latte, I am feeling a bit hyper. Dunno why that is. Perhaps that’s a good thing. Needless to say it’s writing time. Spent Friday writing some stuff, trying to be cohesive, then spent the weekend goofing off, gaming, and cooking. Made a baked mac & cheese took a lot of time and I used extra cheese (mid and sharp cheddar, mozzarella, and Colby with shredded three blend cheddar on top). Needless to say it tastes good. All that effort was golden.  That said, I tested the limits of my lactose intolerance strongly. Eating a square of it for the day was quite enough for my tummy.

So today I’m checking my story notes, and hope to gets to writing. Had a lot of cool ideas, and put down some activity on the antagonist, who was undefined for a long time. Now that I’m in that guy’s head, I feel a lot dirty. I wrote a poem from his POV that may never see the light of day, but it was done for the purpose of knowing who he is, and what he’s doing.  I am gonna have to work with him, and now that I know he’s an awful (to put it nicely) person.

I worked on a poem about the second antagonist, but it wasn’t from her perspective.  I need to get on that today.  BTW my notebook if filled with poems on the novel, but getting on the perspective of characters will help me out…or not. I will work it out.

Happy creative endeavors.

 

Who’s Scared Now?

I’m scared, that’s who. Allow me to explain. Yesterday I woke up early. Not sure why, but I did. There was no alarm, or loud noises, it was one of those moments where my eyes opened, sunlight hit me, and I didn’t feel I could fall back asleep. I was awake.

Since I was awake, I told myself, “make up your bed, it’ll be warm and inviting when you get home.” I made it up, and it looked good, as opposed to the mess I sometimes leave it.  Then I said, “write something, anything, so you’ll have something to work from for the day.” So I wrote something in my notebook. It wasn’t much, just a note that I should learn to make a stronger build for a gaming character. I was disappointed in that note.

Before I left for work, I had a pang of inspiration, that sort of binds a lot of the characters I have for the novel, immediately wrote it down, and laughed because it was funny. Then I went to work. I was busy, and all day I felt intimidated by the revelation I am grateful I wrote down. Why is this epiphany scary? Well, for the first time I feel that after a year I have a cohesive way to tie things together. I keep wondering what all that writing and frustration was for if all it took was one day of waking up early.

One top of that it is clear that as much as I want to believe I was on the right path, I have to work even harder to produce some quality work.  I am intimidated by the quality in the material I seek to produces. This isn’t the angel in the room, but rather a fear of success, I think. This is the right direction, and I will have to take it one word at a time (in no way shape or form am I giving up).

Maybe I needed a cool down moment from when I wrote what I wrote, and how I feel. The idea isn’t going away, is committed to paper, and now needs to be expanded upon, and more written.  I’m worrying over nothing, but that’s me.

Happy creative endeavors.