Designed by Impulse

Sometimes to reach a point in a story or drawing for me, there is no full knowing. No outline or sketch can fully render all that I think it will do. There will be changes. Ripples in the pond that make dramatic, lasting effects.

For example, I know I would use blue, but this particular shade has a lot of power behind it, and what was not what I had in mind. Now it has a place on the landscape of the canvas. Perhaps it’s a line in a story. That impulse yields fruit.

Sometimes impulse is emotion or an emotional response that hides in plain sight, and can override some of the most well-thought out plans. It is a moment, a movement, a thought which knows it must be felt and heard.

Other times sketches are structure, like the outline for a story. I didn’t know things could be resolved so quickly if I hadn’t thought them out, and struggled to resolve their issues. That window in the painting looks too high. Can it be lowered? Can anything be seen outside, and does it hold any form of attention?

Structure can empower us, make us focused, give us control over things we often let go astray. I can only speak for myself, but once things go awry, I find I have to put some order into the chaos.

Happy creative endeavors.



This is Not Chaos

OK, I’m getting older. This weekend is my birthday. I will be good and tired, and likely will want to sleep. I feel already tired, which means I either need some coffee, or suffer though trying to stay awake. It’s all good. I will make it through the day, since going back to bed is not the option I was hoping for.

So this week I need to do more. It seems like my writing mojo has upped and walked away, and its up to me too keep things moving. This little walk out means pushing myself to get stuff done regardless of inspiration or not. Also if what I come up with is a hot mess of BS, then that’s what it will have to be. The goal is to have ten pages by Sunday. I can get two done today if I focus.

I also need to show more love to the print journal, which gets me going with the writing, along with my blog. So this is me trying top get stuff done.

Happy creative endeavors.


Rain from the Heavens

Rain from the Heavens

Written by S. Raynard Haynes

Rain from the heavens washes
Down, down, down on me
Pitter patter of the shower
Hits all the buildings

The sky opens up,
The tall ones feel it first,
It’s one plop of a drop
When the small ones feel the cold

Rain, rain, rain
From the heavens
Down, down, down
Doesn’t hurt, doesn’t break the crown

Yet it feels so good to be inside
Where we can hide
Stay warm and dry
And keep the water from our eyes

The sky was a shade gray
No one cared,
We all played
Then the clouds went on a tear

First drop was wicked
The second was cruel
The third insisted on friends,
And it was off to our rooms.

The Wolf Has His Due

Before I start on anything, I did put the effort into getting my five sentences done for my novel. Went a little over the minimum, and that’s not a bad thing. It’s been tricky to get some kind of balance with my time and creative focus. Now that I’ve gotten back to a point of focus, I’m gonna try and keep that balance. Balance is good for me.

That said, the title is about how sometimes my “wolf” character (the antagonist), doesn’t get his due. That is he’s never close enough to the pig to taste the pork, and for a villain, if he can’t get near the source of his or her desires, what’s the point of pretending the hero is in jeopardy–there’s no real stakes? So what about this wolf? I gotta be a little sympathetic to him. Make sure he has the burning desire, and the skill and will to seize the object of desire, then they must do their darnedest to stay hungry for it, and the tenacity to try again for what they want. That doesn’t mean he gets the goal and has his way, but the hero should catch some kind of hell dealing with such a cunning foe.

It feels so weird to write and know that the antagonist really doesn’t have a chance. I suppose I have to come to terms with the fact that there should be a real possibility a hero could lose in the situation, and take him closer to losing that I feel “safe” with. Safe feels good. Safe calms my anxieties. Safe, however makes my story ring a bit hollow, and that’s not the kind of story I wish to write.

Happy creative endeavors.


It’s Wednesday (But I Was Sure It Was Tuesday)

This is how thrown off I am. It’s Wednesday, and I really haven’t put two and two together in regards to what’s going on. I feel like a hot mess.  At the same time, I feel like I just got out of bed, and haven’t processed this day outside of a few perimeters. Well hello hump day. Woke up to weird dreams that don’t make sense, and somewhat make me feel now that the day needs me to focus better.  Just odd stuff.

Yesterday, writing was minimal. That happens. I really need to remind myself to do at least five sentences after I post this in my journal. I did do a journal post, so I count my creativity as good.  Perhaps its stress. I am stressing over a variety of things, and I need to calm myself down.  Relax should be the main goal, then five sentences.


Pesky Sleep

My sleep has been so deprived for the past few days, and a brother needs a mean recharge. The weather has been extra odd with sun and rain, sometimes at the same time. With the temps we’ve been having, its humid during the day too.  Fall is around the corner, and even worse, when the temps drop, my sinuses and allergies flare up. Yes, I’m taking my allergy meds, and sticking to the schedule. I love a good schedule.

Speaking of time management, I’ve falling off the routine wagon again…I’m getting back on. Grateful at least that I did show my print journal some love AND I wrote more stuff for my novel in the journal. Also clarified some points for another story I wrote, but I needed to sit down and revise what I scribbled down. That’s a whole nother project, and I like the idea that I put it in my journal, so I have it around in a space I always return to.

I really need to make good use of my time, and manage my goals, so I’ll go focus on that today. Hopefully next post will be about what I did to implement my goals.

Happy creative endeavors.


Lots of things are happening, and that usually means my mind is going in many directions, and I need to dial it back. Yesterday was an all-day rain day. The sun’s out now, but the sky looks like it wants to pour again. We shall see, and hopefully make the best of what we have.

A good thing that is happening is I have ideas for the novel I’d love to implement. The first one is changing how I see one of the allies in the story. They were a bit bland when I created them, and this cat had yet to find his voice. So that may be shaping up soon. Will have to write a scene and see if that voice works. A scene I wrote the other day needs a rewrite. Not because it’s bad, but because one of the characters needs a stronger voice. At the moment, this character is cranky. I can do better for this one.

It’s always good to look at some characters, and realize their personas need work, and feel that rewrite is within my power. So I’m glad for that.

Yesterday i did write a little more than five sentences, and I like where that was heading. Gotta add more to it, and also check some names for continuity issues. Eventually I will have to sit down and make a list of the characters, and where they are so I can work with them more efficiently. Don’t wanna use the wrong names and locations.

Happy creative endeavors.