A Monday

Before I sipped this latte, I am feeling a bit hyper. Dunno why that is. Perhaps that’s a good thing. Needless to say it’s writing time. Spent Friday writing some stuff, trying to be cohesive, then spent the weekend goofing off, gaming, and cooking. Made a baked mac & cheese took a lot of time and I used extra cheese (mid and sharp cheddar, mozzarella, and Colby with shredded three blend cheddar on top). Needless to say it tastes good. All that effort was golden.  That said, I tested the limits of my lactose intolerance strongly. Eating a square of it for the day was quite enough for my tummy.

So today I’m checking my story notes, and hope to gets to writing. Had a lot of cool ideas, and put down some activity on the antagonist, who was undefined for a long time. Now that I’m in that guy’s head, I feel a lot dirty. I wrote a poem from his POV that may never see the light of day, but it was done for the purpose of knowing who he is, and what he’s doing.  I am gonna have to work with him, and now that I know he’s an awful (to put it nicely) person.

I worked on a poem about the second antagonist, but it wasn’t from her perspective.  I need to get on that today.  BTW my notebook if filled with poems on the novel, but getting on the perspective of characters will help me out…or not. I will work it out.

Happy creative endeavors.

 

Who’s Scared Now?

I’m scared, that’s who. Allow me to explain. Yesterday I woke up early. Not sure why, but I did. There was no alarm, or loud noises, it was one of those moments where my eyes opened, sunlight hit me, and I didn’t feel I could fall back asleep. I was awake.

Since I was awake, I told myself, “make up your bed, it’ll be warm and inviting when you get home.” I made it up, and it looked good, as opposed to the mess I sometimes leave it.  Then I said, “write something, anything, so you’ll have something to work from for the day.” So I wrote something in my notebook. It wasn’t much, just a note that I should learn to make a stronger build for a gaming character. I was disappointed in that note.

Before I left for work, I had a pang of inspiration, that sort of binds a lot of the characters I have for the novel, immediately wrote it down, and laughed because it was funny. Then I went to work. I was busy, and all day I felt intimidated by the revelation I am grateful I wrote down. Why is this epiphany scary? Well, for the first time I feel that after a year I have a cohesive way to tie things together. I keep wondering what all that writing and frustration was for if all it took was one day of waking up early.

One top of that it is clear that as much as I want to believe I was on the right path, I have to work even harder to produce some quality work.  I am intimidated by the quality in the material I seek to produces. This isn’t the angel in the room, but rather a fear of success, I think. This is the right direction, and I will have to take it one word at a time (in no way shape or form am I giving up).

Maybe I needed a cool down moment from when I wrote what I wrote, and how I feel. The idea isn’t going away, is committed to paper, and now needs to be expanded upon, and more written.  I’m worrying over nothing, but that’s me.

Happy creative endeavors.

Weekend Warrior!!!

I’m hopped up on latte, so please forgive the apostrophes. It’s very early for me, and I need to be a little hyped, or I may fall asleep while thinking. That said, last Friday I was adding notes to my novel, when I put down the word, “what happens if this story takes place in outer space,” which was a pro and a con. A pro is that this would be another layer to this story. The bad thing is, the layer would make this story a bit more complicated, and I haven’t sorted through my other thoughts.

That said, once things get sorted, then maybe addressing this layer might be plausible. A friend suggested that I save these notes fora separate story, which makes sense. I’m thinking spin-off of some sort. It’s too early to tell. There also needs to be a list of all the major characters on one page. Why? It will have all the major players on one page that can be referred to as needed.

I was thinking more on some stories I wrote concepts down for, and to no surprise, I added to this list yesterday. Then I giggled because it got funnier the more  I thought of them, and I remind myself to work on them a little later, but I have a feeling about these ones.  It might lead somewhere.

Now, back to note taking, and eventual more novel writing.  Let me get that list out of the way, then move on.

Happy creative endeavors. Get it done.  🙂

Know Better, Do Better

It’s hard for me to push myself when I know I want to goof off, or do something less stressful (like organize my constantly messy room). However, the more I write via blog, writing exercises, and generally writing my thoughts down/typing them into a file, helps me think better, and process stuff.

Case in point, I wrote down a lot of notes not only for the novel, but other writing projects I want completed in 2017. This meant, last night, as I pondered the age of my MC for the novel, I’d have a different mindset (think late teens vs forty-something). Needless to say in my notes, a couple of my concepts paralleled. The thought occurred to me that one should be about a late teen (novel), and the latest pitch be about the forty-somethings. That way I can explore variations on a theme w/out changing too much in the novel.

That said, I jotted stuff down, and more notes I need to act upon. One word at a time, and keep moving forward.

I also need to get my reading on, and earlier today I realized I failed to charge my Kindle. Not my best planning ahead moment, but it’s charging now.

Happy creative endeavors.

The Angel and the Bastard

 

“Stop being cute” is today’s motto, as I wanted to progress with writing without giving hoot what anyone else thought BEFORE I put a darn thing onto paper/file. It’s far too easy for me to get caught into what appeals to whom, and why I should censor myself ahead of writing the text. This always leads to half-assed writing on my part, and ultimately frustration. A friend calls this, “killing the angel in the room.” The angel is so sweet and demure and wants me, or any creative person to be that way for kindness sake.

What I need to be doing is find my inner bastard. The guy who doesn’t care about your feelings or imagined perceptions over stories that doesn’t exist. That guy cuts to the chase, loves what he does, and won’t accept negative attitudes in his space. He get’s stuff done.

That said, I did do some note-writing for the novel, expanded the main character’s friends, rivals and explored the setting more.  Also narrowed the theme down to one strong concept and will work with it from there. With the theme in mind, I need to look at the main character and his age. An older hero might feel the theme stronger, vs a younger who is coming into his own– or not. I will figure it all out.

Happy creative endeavors, or get your stuff done. No one else is gonna do it for you.

Tuesday Starts Slow

Felt so sluggish this morning, and coffee didn’t help me in the least. I should have skipped it altogether, but then that nagging feeling of, “you should have tried it,” would live in my thoughts. Didn’t want that in my day.  Needless to say, I’m awake, and stuff needs to be done. Time to get back on the horse and write more material. I must add the allergy meds have a slight drowsy effect on me. I hate changing them, because my system has to get used to it, and that takes time.

Observed in my notes that I wanted to adjust the setting of my novel. It’s not a major setback in the least, but I thought of new locations, and that came with a different set of personal desires and goals for the MC. It also helps tie some of the themes together. I found myself referencing some material to research, and added some other things–thus expanding the idea beyond what I thought it could be.

I believe the previous written material for the novel could seamlessly blend with the newer ideas IF I put the effort forth to think it through and execute it. My greatest fear was I would overwork the material. It’s a novel in the bizarro genre, however it has strong contemporary fantasy elements. I feel I represent the genre elements, but there was a few story elements missing. I dare say I compartmentalize a lot of parts, and need to get them organized.

Speaking of efforts, I was chatting with my brother about a subject/genre for a screenplay and was hesitant of the combo. Of course I realized I could write what I wanted without worry, AND get it done. That worry dissolved into humor. I needed to remind myself to focus and worry less about can I or can’t I. The reasons never seem to be something substantial.

Other than these factors, I will try to keep positive and productive. It seems to be the right thing to do to keep a balance in my structure.

Happy creative endeavors.

Sick For Days

Unfortunately, what started as my allergies and sinuses beating on me like an after school bully turned into a moment where I needed to get in bed, and lay in misery as it passed. It took a nasty toll on me as I lost my appetite, and all I wanted to do is try and breath well.  My poor nose went from stopped, to running, to “hey, I can breathe.” My allergy meds may, or may not have been working, or at least taxed. I had to switch meds in order to see some results.

Needless to say, I’m feeling better, so to that, I’m grateful. It will take some time to get back into 100% recover, but that’s expected.

That said little to no writing was done this weekend, but my motto is, to get back on the horse and ride again. So that meant listing out some of the things I want to get done, and boy am I ambitious. That said there are some things I’d like to complete before a talk about them.

One of those goofier distractions I was concerned about was the desire to write more screenplays. What genre, and how many to work on for the remainder of the year. So I wrote down what I want to do, and I’m going to have to tackle it. No way around that. Will have to find a way to make things work.

Happy creative endeavors.