Know Better, Do Better

One of my talents, as a writer, is to have a sense of humor in my stories. I tend to mock behaviors, attitudes, culture, and whatever subject crosses my imagination.  Humor engages my imagination, and it can be entertaining to poke fun at such topics.

I noticed when writing, a notion–which never fully left me–is the notion that humor isn’t the route to take with my writing. That said, I often fail hard at trying to be seen as a “serious” writer.

By “serious,” I mean writing in a sterilized, boring style, stripped of humor, and intolerant to anything that has aspects of entertainment or enjoyment.  I do this while being so ridiculously ineffective in storylines that in part, end up drying out.

I sorta mocked myself in this moment. I don’t mind self-deprecating humor, but a brother needed to be in on his own joke.

I wrote, in previous posts, how I was bad a creating protagonists/main characters because I made them safe, or they lived in a bubble. Part of making better characters, for me, is seeing where I undercut them—and myself. I wasn’t doing them, or myself a favor.

Creativity is a learning process, and if one develops a strength, then one should see the skill, acknowledge it, and explore it without killing your own asset. Self-sabotage is a beast, but in this case, learning and growing from these mistakes will help me improve my craft.

Writing will always be rewriting for me, however, I’d like the idea, premise, research, outline, and first draft of my stories—in all mediums—to start off with the authentic vision and voice this artist allows his talents to shine through without killing the creativity.

Frankly I can and will do better from this experience.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

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Damaged

This is something I’ve been mulling over since the time I’ve said in a previous blog that my melodramatic characters seem to have more action and reaction than the blank slates that are their counterparts in my other stories.  This still seems odd to me. Why does the melodrama story have more life than my other stories?

This is coming from a guy who has watched soaps for years. Back in the day, my Mom watched soaps and we weren’t allowed to change the channel while her soaps were on.  She watched primarily CBS shows, but from time to time, My Aunt and she mentioned liking Dark Shadows—which is odd cause my Mom does not do the supernatural—yet there she was watching it.

That said, I see a little of what my other characters were missing—Many of the characters are damaged in some way, and they play that pain out in their actions (most of the time).

Don’t get me wrong, I have seen some sorry-ass storylines/resolutions, but I’ve seen some compelling ones too.  What I’m getting at is the characters are who they are, and they try to work with what they have.

Outside of the melodrama story, most of my characters have more flat performances, and never leave their stoic bubble, which I have to admit has been a problem for me as a writer. My creative energy gets sapped when the “bubble” characters stop causing things to happen, and are passive in their own story.

With the melodrama story, I made characters selfish, self-absorbed, secretive, self-righteous, hateful, and scornful. They never apologized for their actions or behavior unless it got them something they wanted.

These are also attributes I give to villains in the other stories, and they have the freedom to act.  SO I need to take a long, hard look at my main characters, and as opposed to torturing them, allow them to be dirty, damaged, and make things happen as opposed to staying in a bubble. I still can torute them. I just want them to be better.

Happy creative endeavors.

I Don’t Know What Day It Is

It was a weird night, and the dreams were even stranger. It involved politics, social media, and the news surround me in a beef with politicians. It was surreal as thing shifted like jump cuts from looking at magazine, listening to news reports, and then waking to ask myself what the heck was that, and what did I have to eat that set me on this hot mess.

Needless to say after rolling out of bed and trying to get myself together, I sincerely forgot what day it was. That seemed embarrassing for a second, but as I became more and more awake I realized it was Thursday.

Since I had time to enjoy my coffee, I decided to watch a video on how to form better writing habits. I felt is was a good way to sober up from weird dreams.

Happy creative endeavors.

Cranky

Today, even with coffee I am cranky. Maybe I didn’t get enough sleep.  I know I’m in a mood, because I am mildly annoyed with everyone and everything.  Needless to say I feel drained, and no, I don’t need more coffee. I’m just gonna have to go through this little mood until it leaves me be.

It doesn’t mean I’m rude to people, or that I’m blasting people. I  keep the mood to myself, but OMG I could go back to bed, and not be asked a single question or talked to for the next few hours. For the record I like being nice to people, so I even if I am in a mood, I try to give people the best of me so I don’t give them the worst of me.

I firmly believe my bad mood shouldn’t be something to give to others. Discussing it via blog helps me manage my mood in some ways.  Also being kind perks me up a little more.

Writing went up and down. Wrote out a lot of thoughts, ideas, and even tried to boil my working ideas into two sentences–my version of a high concept. Some ideas felt inspired to where I liked what I wrote the first time. Other ideas needed several revisions before they arrived at being remotely a satisfied point.

Now all of those ideas need a “time out” moment before they are looked again.  Other than that I will remain cranky, polite, and keep writing.  This week is so darn odd. LOL

Happy creative endeavors.

 

Southeast Location

I took a few days away from working on my series that was inspired from my jokes, and after yesterday’s blog post on story styles, I felt inspired to revisit the concept with more thoughts.  Let me also add that I will have to do some research, so we’ve gone into a new stage.

As per past posts the story revolves around a man who has global influence, and is trying to work with his dysfunctional family.  My initial thoughts is he was trying to find his voice. That still holds true, but I think he has a new role he’s trying to please a lot of people while remaining true to himself.

I think the MC/hero/protagonist starts and LLC, and it grows like wildfire. His mom is in charge of the business as she manages him, the finances, and the demands.  She has become the an influential person who is the closest to her son.

Location was another aspect I worked on.  The story takes place in Charleston, SC (or outside the city). This is personal, as I am from the south, and I know this region well.  The main setting is the business which is set in a restored southern mansion.

Needless to say I need to brush up on businesses, and southern mansions, because I’d like for this to be a strong aspect of the series.   This also made me think of ideas for the series.

Below are some notes I made as thought this out:

  • Getting sued.  I know it’s an LLC, BUT I imagine people want access to the MC unfiltered.
  • The MC has a unintentional monopoly no on can match, and this sets some people’s shorts on fire.
  • People want favors at the MC’s expense.
  • People want Mom’s favor and try to bribe or blackmail her,
  • MC has to learn when to say “no,” and not being a people pleaser when the business has policies he and his mom are ironing out.
  • Mom and MC are having issues over policies.  Some she insists upon, others he insists upon.

Tomorrow I may post something I found to be a problem: I want to create some other relatives that have positive influence on the MC.  I’m thinking an aunt (Mom’s sis) and a Uncle (Dad’s brother) who may or may not work for him.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

An Experiment

Hello all. I need to get cracking on my writing, whether I feel in the mood or not. As always it’s good to get in the writing mind with a blog post, then I really need to try this experiment to see if it spurs my creativity.

What I’m going to do is pretend my novel is either low budget film, or a video game that needs fleshing out. That means I need to make sure the characters are in place, there’s a narrative, and that I have a solid conclusion.

The goal is to see the story become a better, or more structured once I am able to kill the anxiety over completing it.   Let me try this to get myself process material.

Happy creative endeavors.

Post-Coffee Posting

Last night, I went to bed early for me (12:30) and this morning woke up to an alarm feeling very, very sluggish. My eyes were heavy, I was slow as all get out, and coffee was needed for my future. Opened blinds to get a blast of sunlight, which did not improve my disposition.  It hurt my eyes. I just wanted to shut them, and if I could, go lay back down.

My family was up and about, annoying me with perkiness and questions, like “how are you this morning,” and “hello.” I only replied with a series of grunts and groans.  I got my coffee, and before I could sip, I was pelted with more perky questions.  I really needed them to stop. I’m still traumatized by getting up, and moving about.  Let the coffee work on me.

Finally I felt somewhat awake and was open to communicating with the fam.

For the record I did do some writing yesterday. I am glad that I did. It was some simple stuff I can need to type, but the important thing was that i got myself writing some material. Hopefully I’ll repeat the process today. Pen and paper works for the moment. Better go with the flow.

Happy creative endeavors.