So Not Together

This weekend has been me, not putting my best foot forward as towards writing.  While I have been writing, it has been sporadic, and not with any intent of completing anything. I feel kinda bad about that, but unless I get off my duff, nothing is gonna happen in regards to things happening.

That said I did write down a lot of random ideas, and thing of the direction I needed to go for not only my novel, but what else am I writing at the moment. It doesn’t help that I am obsessed with gaming to a point that it’s what I want to do with free time.  While gaming is pleasurable, it’s not writing.  I’ve put myself in a hole of sorts.

What does this mean? It means I need to get on point.  If I can put the effort into writing like I do games, I think I can get more done.  Also, sometimes I feel very, very frustrated by the writing process. I was POSITIVE I locked down the total direction of the novel, but I was wrong.

 

Gotta figure stuff out.

Happy creative endeavors.

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It’s Only Desire

Usually in stories (films come to mind), the character with the strongest desire can be potentially the most fascinating.  I always think of how Darth Vader in Empire Strikes Back, Maleficent, in Sleeping Beauty, and the Queen in Snow White all have the strongest motives in the story.  Sure, Luke wants to be a Jedi, and that’s cool. Aurora wants to marry the guy she just met, and that’s…odd (story there), and Snow White knows she’s in trouble (fleeing is rational-but then she becomes a homemaker).

All the villains have the clear cut desires and seem to drive the film further.  Darth Vader wants Luke -I assumed it was revenge for destroying the Death Star, but it got deeper and personal. We see a lot of Vader and his obsession, and what happens to people who disappoint him. It got real ugly at the Empire.

Maleficent made pettiness an art form; Don’t invite her to a christening, and your baby gets viciously cursed, and she doesn’t stop there. She mocks Prince Phillip after capturing him, and is deeply satisfied with herself.

The Queen is so vain, she goes through great lengths to murder Snow White.  She even ruins her own beauty to get close to her victim. That’s some sick dedication that for a brief moment, paid off. She’s like the tragic hero in a play with the fatal flaw of vanity.

Are these antagonists secretly the protagonists in the films?  After all their desires/emotions seem to push the story further. If they don’t do what they do, get thwarted multiple times, and push back, then nothing would happen.

Perhaps without Vader’s assertiveness (and story focus upon), during his training, Luke would have been extra-extra foolish and made a b-line for Vader for killing his father, then discovered the truth. Thus it would be about Luke’s own personal needs.  It’s more of Vader pushed all the right buttons.

Maybe Aurora relocated as a child, found herself preoccupied with helping others in her teens, and discovered the curse and her origins? What if Snow white fled from some unknown danger,  discovered the dwarfs, and they train her to fight, only to discover this evil queen after her is stuck on being the fairest?

That’s just me thinking about the scenarios without the villain driving the story. The films would be different for sure, but the motives and actions of the heroes would be stronger in my opinion. These are the things I think about when writing myself. Seriously, villains get a lot of screen time, and some of their motives are so strong they dominate the story. It makes them very, very intriguing, and I realize they usually have the strongest emotions, or the stronger focus on their emotions/needs.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

 

Triggered…Sorta

It’s been a hectic week since my last post.  Had a fam emergency that demanded my time and attention. It wasn’t pretty, but that fam member is getting better.  Needless to say this crisis left me a little drained.

I’ve still been writing, and have been doing some dialogue driven scenes that I need to work on more since I added a forth character who is bringing her brand of conflict to the story.  I don’t “hear” her voice as clear as the other characters, so I’m annoyed that hasn’t happened yet, so in due time.

The novel, which has me triggered (sorta), because yesterday I wrote a scene  in which was not terrible, but dealt with abuse, and it made me feel bad, however it was very necessary because at one point the main character has to make a choice about who is good, and how inhumane people have been to him.  The scene pinched me for a few reasons; Abuse is difficult to discuss, let alone write or read. The abusers are so dehumanizing, I found myself upset.

That said, I do feel bad things do happen to good people, and the terrible circumstances are beyond the control of ourselves. Also to experience such a dehumanizing low, and to rise above it, makes me feel a lot better knowing the character has dignity and personal strength.  I have a lot to work on in this story.  This is just one of them.

After leaving that scene alone for a long while, I thought the novel wasn’t weird enough for a bizarro story, and suddenly there was this giant rooster used to travel to the moon.  So abuse, dehumanizing, overcoming obstacles, and a moon-hopping chicken.  BTW the abuse isn’t in every scene, but for the protagonist, it’s something he can’t forget or dismiss, but I’d like to think-at least at this point-that he will overcome the negativity and not become a monster because if it.

 

A Thursday Worth Having is A Good One

So, my tablet is dying, and my laptop is kinda wonky which may mean it’s on its last leg.  Not too happy about that, and I don’t know what to say about my tablet at the moment other than I’m frustrated.

Spent a lot of time randomly writing, and trying NOT to think too hard on the direction, but to let it fall into place.  This meant I am simply not too worried about too much, or when it crosses my mind that I fill in that blank as I go along. Why am I doing this? I found my myself congested with thoughts on previous material where I kept choking on getting it done because too much work went into planning, and not enough on executing.

So I’m happier, and I keep wanting to know, what happens next, so I keep writing.  So far, so good.  All I can say is it involves family, and I keep wondering how they are going to resolve their issues, or perhaps they won’t.  The story took another turn on the way home (I wasn’t driving), so I tried to type it out, but this phone is horrible as far as typing, and the auto-correct doesn’t want to be my friend in this endeavor.

That said, I need to correct the crappy car writing I did so it looks like I understand English and punctuation usage because I was onto something.  I’ll see where this goes and move from here.

P.S. I’m gonna try this method with the novel. I already know enough and it’s time to let the characters speak to each other.

Happy creative endeavors.

Wednesday Goodness

It’s been a few days of not feeling well, back in the sun (big mistake), going to bead early, and a doctor’s appointment early this morning. I was surprised I woke up that early, AND that I haven’t gulped down a large latte yet.  I did have a cup of coffee this morning, and that seems to be enough for me at the moment.  Oddly, when i don’t have a latte, I go to bed early. When I do have them, I tend to be awake for a while–like 2:30 AM without a hint of sleep in my system.

I’m grateful I went to sleep early, and that I wasn’t too groggy last night.  Mind you, I don’t like mornings, but I needed to see the doctor.  Learned my blood pressure is up, and that’s not good. Mind you, it’s not at a critical level, but I need to reduce that.

Spent a few days writing off/on for the novel, and it’s been like little visitations, then I’m off.  One thing that’s occurred to me is the main antagonist never shuts up.  he is in my head with lots of indignant comments that I put down when I can, but I am like dude, you’re killing me.  Shut up!  LOL  Lil bastard was like, “Excuse me? Where he hell do you get off? Read the marquis. I’m the headliner.”

Yes, he sassed me, but I love it. He’s too grown for his own good.  His comeuppance can’t arrive any sooner.   LOL

Happy creative endeavors.

 

Monday

I never feel like I feel terrific on Mondays. I know that’s silly of me, but I am grouchy, and I want coffee, and until thing I’d rather not socialize, which seems to give me life.

This weekend wasn’t terrible. Some writing mixed with a lot of gaming, and overall enjoying my weekend, minus a few frustrations. It wasn’t terrible at all. I needed to get myself into feeling like I could relax, and clear my mind of many things.  BTW gaming didn’t go 100 % well for me.  I flaked out on a group adventure, and was booted from the team. I got lost and couldn’t participate. Then I tried out some new characters in different games, and got mixed results that varied from ok to hot mess.

The worst was the conquest mode. I played my part, but it was a lot more work that the other modes, and a bit stressful.  I was not prepared for that, died constantly, and tried to fill my role until we lost.

To be fair to myself, when starting new roles, I was bound to make missteps, and of course, I learned from those missteps.

Other than that there was fun in gaming this weekend.