Fountain of Creativity

The migraine must have heralded a fount of creativity, as I found myself writing a lot more in my notebook.  Some of it was for the novel, and some were ideas that were chilling in my head.

I then typed them when I had the chance, just to give the concepts more of a visual presence outside of my notebook, and a little more organized.  I need to keep working on them.

The ideas have a sort of cohesive, related theme, which is probably why they seems so clear to me yesterday.   One of my teachers once said, we write the same story over and over. Don’t know how true that is, but I do visit a lot of the same themes.

Some older ideas popped up as well, which meant they needed to be written down.  Once story I had so many questions, I typed them out, and hope to answer those quuestions soon.

The novel keeps taking these turns. Wrote down a possible rewrite by hand, and after thinking on it overnight, I realized I missed something, and will add that to the story soon.  Need to go back to the outline and add this as well.

Some of the dialogue I wrote out needs revisions, as I’ve thought of some new lines, and others I need to scrap.  It will work itself out.  I am happiest when I’m creative. so I love those aspects.  Gotta keep being creative.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

Migraine

Today is neck pain and migraine day. This means a little stress into my day has fallen, and it’s up to me to steer myself to a path of goodness. Writing went on chill this weekend until late last night when came up with an opening line for the first chapter with the hero.

Failed to write the intro down, promptly forgot, and woke up this morning in addition to discomfort with the intro waiting on me.  It’s not getting away again.

On last Friday, I worked on the outline and wrote out some dialog for some scenes, so it wasn’t like I wasted my creativity–at least that’s what i told myself–I could and should have done more.

Back to the present: So now I may have a shot at typing out a few lines for the novel. I gotta go get that done.  Also have random ideas for another story–but will put that to the side. Will write it down too.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

Outlined II

Working on my outline and I feel like this is good progress. I found myself writing down stuff in my notebook and even out some potential dialogue. It’s rough as all get out, but it’s a start, right?

That said I like that there is progress and a little pushing to keep up with the writing. The outline will be linger than anticipated, and it will likely require a little more detail per chapter.

I’m trying to tell what happens in each chapter, and see if I need to split things up, or not. It’s just one of those things that requires me to have a seat and work on it for a while. I’m just gonna plug away until it’s done.

Happy creative endeavors.

Simply Complicated

Yesterday a friend suggested–to solve my woes with the main character, that I ask myself, “what does this character really want, and then let him know he will NEVER have what he wants. His reaction to this is what will determine his character.”

That sounded so simple, until I tried to answer the question. Then my brain hurted (yes, I am fully aware that “hurted” is not a word–thought it was funny).

At first I went with his occupation, and knew he was having drama with his career as a painter,  and wanted to be taken seriously as an artist, but that wasn’t it.

The main character struggles with his desire intimacy: He wants to be in love, feel wanted, and be touched, however there’s a vicious social taboo on him.

So knowing he’s longing for something out of reach, I’ve placed him in an open spotlight where he’s the center of attention and controversy. This cause some people to panic, and have some spiteful, petty, and bigoted reactions.

So he wants intimacy, but needs to be respected as well.

His reaction to these events I haven’t fully figured out yet. I don’t want him to run and hide. He needs to stand firm, even though he’s risking harm cause people go out of their way to be petty and evil under the cloak of righteousness.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

Fear

So as I keep working on the novel and progressing, I get this fear going on. A fear that I haven’t developed the main character enough. I’ve done so much world and character building, I hadn’t stopped until now to examine the character.

Also I feel like I’m trying to avoid the issue with him. I’m rather frustrated with myself. I put in my notes that I needed to be more blunt and honest in the writing, otherwise it will look like I’m dancing around the characters and situations without really dealing with them.

Maybe this is anxiety, or me reminding myself to stay on point. Whatever it is, I feel like I need to manage it, and get underway.  Part of what I looked at is whether or not the character is noble (or has a noble sentimentality), or is more of a rogue.

Part of me likes the idea of someone who has faced adversity and willing to fight more in a righteous way. I also love that a person can be lovable and not always willing to do the right thing, and make a hell of a lot of mistakes.

Heroes do know sacrifice, which is inherent in their life and noble.  I dunno. I’m indecisive at the moment.  Maybe it needs to marinate overnight now that I’ve dragged the fear to light and faced it.  No blinking. Gotta get this done.

Happy creative endeavors.

Guardian Role

Another Smite video with me playing the role of Guardian, instead of mage. This is Athena, and she is a mix between warrior and support.  She can take a beating, and give one. She also does magical damage, so it’s like a melee mage.

I leveled her up using a lot of utility to increase my health, mana, cool downs, and protection against physical and some magical attacks. Also increased my attack speed so I can hit a little faster than my opponent.

Smite Gameplay :Chang’e

Gaming keeps my mind off stuff. Ye, I did some writing this weekend. Don’t you worry, but gaming is fun.

Chang’e is a mage in Smite. Her kit gives her a lot of mobility, elusiveness, sustain, and crowd control. Like with most MOBA games, you have to level up your character and build her abilities.

In my case I went for the larger health & man pools, and boosts to my healing and power. I stayed in the fight longer, and my team was good.