Work With Me

So my system is a hot mess in the sense that I am overstimulated with finals and I feel a bit overwhelmed. I’m not in class, but as someone who has to assist others with their needs during this time, it has taken its tool. I am exhausted, and my creativity is taking a nasty dive.

Now that is out of the way, I’ll just have to keep trying and work towards something.  That hot mess feeling, however taxes me, and all I can do is endure, get some rest, and behave in a professional (yet slightly goofy) manner. This latte really isn’t helping me, however it will insure I stay at least buzzed enough to get stuff done.

Other than this, I feel all things are manageable, and I need to see this not as an obstacle, but a positive challenge. After all I am helping people, and maybe making their day a little easier than it was.

Happy creative endeavors.

Finals are Upon Me, Whether I Wish It Or Not

OK, for the aforementioned title I copped and revised this line from the Lord of the Rings The Two Towers films. It is apt for this situation.  If you know the scene, then you know Aragorn said it to Theoden. I’m saying the title to myself. There’s not sassy comeback to this.

For those not in the know, I work in an academic setting, so finals is part of the package.  Things seem to have this chaos effect during these times, and that’s always adding to stress for everyone. Now try to address the chaos on the weekend when some departments are closed, and you may, or may not get the on-call person.  It happens.  Also  some people are testy and desperate, and have no problems with giving out the drama.

Ignoring the bad for the moment, it is something I empathize with, as I was once a student. I’ve done my fair share of finals and overnighters.  I try to be understanding, however that really stretched the tolerance after the fifth person being in that mood.

I find I’m less creative when I’m stressed like this, and it takes time to get back in the rhythm of getting my creativity back. I may need some time off to detox from stress.

Happy better creative endeavors.

 

Headache

I didn’t sleep well, and I woke up feeling a touch of a headache I need to address before it becomes a migraine.  With my luck it will turn into a migraine that has me in all sorts of bad ways.

That said I wasn’t very creative, but I need to get on top of that. It always seems that chaos pops up to have a good time when I want to have a breakthrough.  That and I am a hot mess, sometimes, and other times I have clarity.  Damn, it’s hot in this building. I feel extra warm and that annoys meSo I took the pain meds and hopefully I’ll be in shape soon.  Need to make my plans a lot better.  Will discuss that later.

 

Happy creative endeavors.

Goals

I need to set some projects into stronger rotation in my days, and that also includes this blog. I took a seminar on Friday about projects, and effective communication, despite the fact that these posts can be spur of the moment, there is something to be said for a focused, thought-out post.

That said, it’s Sunday, I’m a bit moody, and tired. It leaves me little room for putting things together, and I’d rather be gaming.  Since I’m not gaming, all I can do is put some effort into posting

Little writing got done this weekend, and I am reminded that I am not happy that. If I am to change this aspect of my weekends, I need to change my attitude. Writing is a passion, but it is also an investment. I need to invest in myself on a daily basis, even if it’s twenty minutes a day, at the very least I know effort was placed towards something I love.

Keep in mind each writing task is a separate project. For example, the blog gets its twenty mins, then the novel gets twenty mins, and so forth. I gotta get myself together.

Happy creative endeavors.

A Thursday

I got the writing I wanted done yesterday, and I enjoyed it. Felt good, and went on to do a little more writing. Woke up today with a new idea in mind I need to jot down in a few mins. Ideas seem to happen when I’m the least focused on them. That makes me a bit of a dervish. I think this will be a screenplay, as I promised myself to write three of them this year, or at least do the first 25 pages (act one) of each of them.

BTW, I just stopped to write it down so that I can not hold this idea in my head too long.  It seems like a lot of ideas can get left in the dust, BUT writing them down helps. Also getting the time to set things in motion will help.

Gonna do some more writing, but needed a blog post for my day.

Happy creative endeavors.

A Tuesday

Yesterday I wrote a couple of poems from other character’s point of views. One of them I struggled with, and wrote two versions, where I felt this antagonist was complex, and kind of tragic. I think I have sympathy for this character. She gonna be a hot mess, which is good for the story. The third character is a bit of a willful, controlling type.  It was funny that two of the three characters have dialog playing around in my head, and I know already how they feel about the first antagonist. This should prove interesting to write down.

I need to work on the protagonist, and his allies next. Mainly because I want to see who they are, and how they would react to situations the way I know how the villains will act. The hero I know goes through ups and downs, however I want to do a before and after poem to see where he goes.  Allies 1 and two may have some duality as well.

I mostly  know how the antagonists would react to nearly any situation (say you left them a peanut butter sandwich). I know who’d eat it, I know who’d put demands on the quality of the food. and who would be offended.

I’ll get to that.

Happy creative Endeavors.

 

Not Much To Say

It’s an awkward moment where I look at the blog, and don’t know what to say. It’s a one word at a time day. Did some writing, attempted to organize a lot of my thoughts on paper and file. It seems daunting, but I liked getting the work done. World building is daunting, but I’m a break through this.

Yesterday I also goofed off and did some gaming, which sorta of relaxes me. At least I was able to forget the day which was a mix of busy and chaotic. With gaming, it’s a puzzle of sorts, as I am playing MOBAs, and trying how to make the characters better, get the mechanics down, and overall be better for the team.  With MOBAs I get a mixed bag because some players are better at communication than others.

Other players I’ve to yell at players, and I’ve had my fill of obnoxious people, so I don’t need that kind of mess in my chill time.