Finals are Upon Me, Whether I Wish It Or Not

OK, for the aforementioned title I copped and revised this line from the Lord of the Rings The Two Towers films. It is apt for this situation.  If you know the scene, then you know Aragorn said it to Theoden. I’m saying the title to myself. There’s not sassy comeback to this.

For those not in the know, I work in an academic setting, so finals is part of the package.  Things seem to have this chaos effect during these times, and that’s always adding to stress for everyone. Now try to address the chaos on the weekend when some departments are closed, and you may, or may not get the on-call person.  It happens.  Also  some people are testy and desperate, and have no problems with giving out the drama.

Ignoring the bad for the moment, it is something I empathize with, as I was once a student. I’ve done my fair share of finals and overnighters.  I try to be understanding, however that really stretched the tolerance after the fifth person being in that mood.

I find I’m less creative when I’m stressed like this, and it takes time to get back in the rhythm of getting my creativity back. I may need some time off to detox from stress.

Happy better creative endeavors.

 

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Mockingbird

Part of me loves humor and poking fun at a vast majority of subjects. I try to keep it light and silly, but it often is viewed through other people’s perspective. That said, I try to be goofy in my writing, and sometimes a joke, or a sense of humor can pinch some readers the wrong way. Boy do they leap, or pee on themselves. Others just cry. The cool ones walk it off and go cry in their car, or something where we can’t see. I saw it though.  Ugly cries are the best-cause you let that shit go!

My intent of humor doesn’t always shine through the way I think it will, but it doesn’t have to shine for everyone, does it?

Writing, like any craft can poke fun at everything, and not everyone will find something funny about it. Who knows why it pinches so hard, unless someone tells me why. Then again, does that mean I should stop writing on that particular subject? Does that make it censorship? For the record no one has told me to stop writing on something. I’ve read enough stories and think pieces to see that some material doesn’t jive with everyone, and I see that as a good thing. After all can a story(ies) be universally loved?

That said if you do something stupid or ridiculous in front of me, or I hear about it, that goes in my data bank of mischief to capitalize upon. Let’s face it, I like things that can be silly, and exploring them. I also like trying to improve stories. That and I know how good it feels to be petty in my fiction writing. Don’t take me serious all the time.

I will say this. The part of me that likes to be silly likes to be seen, and doesn’t care if people disapprove.  It needs balance with a tempered, intelligent thinker who appreciates that not everyone wants or desires to see me. I’m a still do me though.

Happy creative endeavors.

Headache

I didn’t sleep well, and I woke up feeling a touch of a headache I need to address before it becomes a migraine.  With my luck it will turn into a migraine that has me in all sorts of bad ways.

That said I wasn’t very creative, but I need to get on top of that. It always seems that chaos pops up to have a good time when I want to have a breakthrough.  That and I am a hot mess, sometimes, and other times I have clarity.  Damn, it’s hot in this building. I feel extra warm and that annoys meSo I took the pain meds and hopefully I’ll be in shape soon.  Need to make my plans a lot better.  Will discuss that later.

 

Happy creative endeavors.

Goals

I need to set some projects into stronger rotation in my days, and that also includes this blog. I took a seminar on Friday about projects, and effective communication, despite the fact that these posts can be spur of the moment, there is something to be said for a focused, thought-out post.

That said, it’s Sunday, I’m a bit moody, and tired. It leaves me little room for putting things together, and I’d rather be gaming.  Since I’m not gaming, all I can do is put some effort into posting

Little writing got done this weekend, and I am reminded that I am not happy that. If I am to change this aspect of my weekends, I need to change my attitude. Writing is a passion, but it is also an investment. I need to invest in myself on a daily basis, even if it’s twenty minutes a day, at the very least I know effort was placed towards something I love.

Keep in mind each writing task is a separate project. For example, the blog gets its twenty mins, then the novel gets twenty mins, and so forth. I gotta get myself together.

Happy creative endeavors.

A Thursday

I got the writing I wanted done yesterday, and I enjoyed it. Felt good, and went on to do a little more writing. Woke up today with a new idea in mind I need to jot down in a few mins. Ideas seem to happen when I’m the least focused on them. That makes me a bit of a dervish. I think this will be a screenplay, as I promised myself to write three of them this year, or at least do the first 25 pages (act one) of each of them.

BTW, I just stopped to write it down so that I can not hold this idea in my head too long.  It seems like a lot of ideas can get left in the dust, BUT writing them down helps. Also getting the time to set things in motion will help.

Gonna do some more writing, but needed a blog post for my day.

Happy creative endeavors.

A Wednesday

Today calls for light rain, and that’s fine. I did the writing I said I was going to do in yesterday’s post. It was not what I expected.  For clarity, I said I was going to write some poems from the main character’s (and allies) perspective to help me see who they are in this novel.

Writing a poem from the protagonist’s perspective proved to be tricky and broken. Broken because I kept getting distracted repeatedly. I did get a point of view, and I hope to have time to work on this more.  As a main character I know he’s going through phases, and I need to address the final phase as a hero, which he may, or may not understand and want.  I need to “hear” what he’s saying.

The allies have proved to be easier. I wrote something already on one of them, and decided that it was the right way to go with that character.  That character is a trickster archetype, so my notes reflect exactly what I want to say. I still need to write a poem from his POV because I feel it will help me ease into his thoughts better.

The third character is tricky because in my notes I knew what I wanted and who I said she was, and the fact that she shifts a lot in her her persona and actions (her archetype is shape shifter). I suppose this is more like a duality, but I understand where her conflict lies.

Another ally to work on, for the moment, is also a bit of a shapeshifter archetype, since he has opposing viewpoints, but isn’t evil. He’s more of a reluctant ally, and while I can hear his voice, I can’t nail down his point of view yet.  I do think if I look back at what I wrote for him (for the novel), I’ll hear his voice better.

Happy creative endeavors.

 

 

A Tuesday

Yesterday I wrote a couple of poems from other character’s point of views. One of them I struggled with, and wrote two versions, where I felt this antagonist was complex, and kind of tragic. I think I have sympathy for this character. She gonna be a hot mess, which is good for the story. The third character is a bit of a willful, controlling type.  It was funny that two of the three characters have dialog playing around in my head, and I know already how they feel about the first antagonist. This should prove interesting to write down.

I need to work on the protagonist, and his allies next. Mainly because I want to see who they are, and how they would react to situations the way I know how the villains will act. The hero I know goes through ups and downs, however I want to do a before and after poem to see where he goes.  Allies 1 and two may have some duality as well.

I mostly  know how the antagonists would react to nearly any situation (say you left them a peanut butter sandwich). I know who’d eat it, I know who’d put demands on the quality of the food. and who would be offended.

I’ll get to that.

Happy creative Endeavors.