Goals

Today I used the phrase “young man,” when speaking to someone, and for a moment I realized that I was no longer the carefree young guy who had the luxury of  suppressing/ignoring the older, mature, wiser person that I’ve become. This is a runabout way of say that I didn’t take full stock of who I am today, as opposed to who I think I am.
That said, I need to take the cap off some ideas and that requires constructive thoughts and action to implement my dreams and goals. I like to seem a lot of the things I love to do move past the planning and creative stages, and this means hopping to action, as opposed to hoping they will eventually come through.

I need to master time management and make productivity a must do activity for myself. Capitalizing on my time should have a positive effect on the completion of projects, and moving forward on my goals. I do believe I can bring many of my passions into reality provided I do the work that comes with the ideas.

Granted, like many I am a tried and true procrastinator, and I love distractions from TV shows to gaming. I believe I can strike a strong balance, and will have harmony through the rest of my time on the Earth. Follow through skills and drive is a must.

Happy creative endeavors.

Playing Paragon

Because I mentioned the game Paragon several times, and I love to upload videos, here’s the first part of me playing as Gadget.  Paragon is a MOBA, so it’s played online with other players, and fun for me!

Gadget is hero with strong area denial abilities which helps me clear lanes.  As I progress though the game and level up, I can power up my hero to hit harder for more damage, and replenish my resources.

Happy gaming, peeps.

Discombobulated on a Monday

Let me start by saying I was POSITIVE I posted Friday’s post. I knew I didn’t post on the weekend, but at least I had Friday’s up until I logged in and saw I had done NOTHING. Well, I supposed I need to correct this error, no?

Let me say, writing wise, while I didn’t post, I did write a lot in my journal. I even came up with  the starting dialog for a new scene for the novel I was excited to put down on paper.  it’s raw as all get out, with me writing the material out, and a few lines of description. I like that it’s dialog heavy, and really could use some serious formatting.  That’s promising. I also finished my exercise of writing a minimum of twenty character descriptions that revealed a little about the character’s persona. I purposely left those alone after I did them in order to see them with fresh eyes.

That said, I spent the weekend gaming.  Mostly Paragon. I tried to figure out the mechanics of several heroes in the game, and may need to jot down some notes. The sad thing is I played one hero, and got stuck on the mindset I was playing a different character.  Each hero has a unique playstyle, so as I wondered what things weren’t working, I quickly figured out why.

I need to do some writing.  I hope to write more for the novel.  We shall see.

Happy creative endeavors.

Erotic Fiction Melted My Laptop(s)

Well sorta, let me backtrack. A while back I tried my hand at writing erotic fiction, but it never really read like erotic fiction. More like bad porn, and I kept trying to revise the dang story. The first time I did this, I thought I had a great story. I was a genius, and then my laptop crashed hard. I had to send it back to the manufactures to get repaired, and I lost ALL the data I hadn’t saved. It was a lesson learned–at least the wrong lesson, which is I shouldn’t write erotic fiction.

Fast forward a few years, and a new laptop later, I made an attempt to write another erotic fiction story. It started like the last one, which was BAD porn fiction. However, I kept working on it because I KNEW I could do better than my last piss poor attempts.  I revised, and revised. I even put it away for a while and when back to it with fresh eyes.  I made a tiny bit of progress that had a hint of character development, which gave me hope. I was also positive that I saved the story to an external drive, but in reality, I didn’t.

Then my computer crashed, hard.  The screen was blank, and I couldn’t get it to function. I had to re-install all my software, and let me tell you that was painstaking.  Anything I didn’t save, I lost. So, my second story vanished back into the ether. I took it as a sign that I was bad at any kind of erotic story, and should leave the writing to the pros.

Reflecting on this situation, I’m reminded of my bad timing, and the fact that I wrote a third erotic story that I did save, and I liked because it wasn’t a “porn story.” That is to say while sex was on both character’s minds, there was some seduction going on, also I was experimenting with wordplay, and it had a medieval-fantasy setting. I hadn’t opened this file in a while, but I have it copied, and I LOVE  that my computer didn’t die on me.

Maybe my laptops hate bad fiction in general, and preferred to kill themselves than have those stories stored in their system, or it sacrificed itself to save me from embarrassing myself. I like to think it was a noble sacrifice.  Either way, my laptops proved the existence of “brain bleach,” and had their memories wiped.

I’m going to write more erotic fiction, and I’m gonna see if my laptop will hold itself together.

Happy creative endeavors.

Brainy Wednesday

I did manage to write in my print journal once again. Forgot what I wrote, so I will have to go back and read the journal entry. I’m doing a self-imposed deadline for a writing exercise as well, which is to write out descriptive lines for characters. I said do twenty of them, so I have up till Monday to finish this project. This is to see what I think of them.  I wrote out a piece for the main character in the novel as well.  I let the idea marinate overnight, so I should look at it today, and revise it. That part is strictly how I see my hero, and this will help me shape the theme a lot tighter.

So, journal writing is a great thing, and I need to keep it up, even if I write entries I don’t fully remember, but sometimes there are things that happen while pen is to paper. I believe most of the descriptive elements won’t make sense to me until time has passed, and they’ve cooled off.

Other than that, I wrote and need to revise a brief script for my gaming channel. It’s a voice over introduction, so I wanted to know what I would say before I pressed record.  I have to wait until I have complete free time to sit and put together this presentation. Then I have to upload it. For the record, my gaming channel is named S. R. Haze.

Random idea popped into my head about what “On the nose means” in stories in my head, that seemed less interesting because they were too direct. It seemed like I confused my understanding of genre with event. Having a vengeful spirit in a horror story is fine, but what’s happening beyond that to help the story? I quiz myself all the darn time, and need to have better answers.  EX: Instead of Vengeful ghost story, how about,  Woman diagnosed with cancer is visited by a vengeful spirit hell bent on breaking up her marriage.

I should do more journal entries. LOL

As always, happy creative endeavors.

Paragon

I found a new MOBA (Multiplayer Online Battle Arena) to play called Paragon.  I’ve been a tad bit obsessed with the game, and play it a whole lot.  Unlike Battleborn, or Overwatch, this game is a third person perspective (as opposed to a first person perspective). I’m enjoying trying to figure out how the mechanics work, and what heroes to choose.

The game is in open beta, and is free to play, which has made trying it very, very worthwhile for me. I haven’t figured everything out, but naturally I gravitated towards the support characters.  I’m the team helper.  Slowly getting better at understanding how to build a decent character to effectively support the team–by blocking the enemy– without draining my resources.