Friday

Woke up feeling like this Friday is a hot mess of waking up early (after going to bed late) and feeling like I’m not gonna be good this week. Never mind that I forgot to purchase some allergy meds when I had the chance, or that I have’t used the Netti pot to clear out my sinuses for the last two days. I am now known as the house of mucus. Gross. But funny, cause I know better.

That said I’m hearing voices. Character voices, and I’m like, talk to me.  Main character for the novel has a voice that I like, and will keep.  The villain has his voice down as well. Next, the MC’s ally has her voice, and a secondary character has her voice as well.  I missing several voices, however, before I know it, I’ll hear them too.  BTW this is the only acceptable time you’ll ever hear me condoning hearing voices.  If’s it’s not for a story, then I’d back away from the person, or their blog.  I jest cause I love peeps, and humor makes me feel good.

Today has been one of those days where I’m gonna go home, and I am positive I am going to lay down, but inside I know that’s a lie. I’m gonna play video games, cause a man my age should be out dating, and having drama that he’ll put in his stories that he’ll be sued for in the future by a bitter ex.  And she will be bitter cause I’m gaming, not dating, and didn’t watch the Lifetime made for TV movie with her.  I also binge watched the shows without her.  I’m a terrible fake boyfriend. To be fair she fake cheated on me with a cooler nerd, so gaming is my safe space.

That said it is Friday, I need to drink more water, and I think I have the library pretty much to myself now. Which means it will be a bigger safe space, cause libraries are wonder resources that are for the people.  No gaming though, which is a bummer, but what can I say. Time and place for everything. You wouldn”t take a shower in the rain on a city street, would you? I mean the rain water’s usually icy cold, and looks dirty.  It’ll like washing off in mud.  Time and place for your outer freakishness.

Happy creative endeavors.

 

Listing

I have a lot of lists to work on.  They were to do things I decided that were important enough to write down yesterday, and review today to modify as needed. I even made a dinner menu to work on for the upcoming months.

I need to get to work on this . It won’t be too consuming, but I’m a get some stuff done.  I aim to have things completed or on a strong daily rotation with deadlines.

Happy creative endeavors.

Tricky Behavior

Let me start by saying writing a novel is complicated. I feel like it’s continuous activities that never cease. I have four books I need to glance over for research, and still have to write more. Was looking over one of the ally characters, who more or less didn’t have a strong presence in the story other than being mentor-ish.  He evolved into a trickster who was a bit too cunning and I quickly became unsure of who’s side he was really on, and what he was up to.  Needless to say I jotted down a lot of notes to help “see” this character stronger.

The second all I did see and develop in her own right so she stood out. Not a trickster, but I have a story arc for her that’s good, and ties into other characters, so she’s on point for the moment.  The third all I have no clue what he’s up to and feel he’s in the same place the first all was. He’s not going to be a trickster, but I need to figure out where/who he is, or he’s just hanging about saying “hello,” and being pretty much a lampshade in the corner collecting dust.

For the most part the main genre has stayed the same, which is bizarro, and there’s a lot more to do.  Started drafting a new outline, so I hope I’m moving forward. To paraphrase a former instructor, “resolve your story issues in your outline, or you may get stuck.”  If not, you may hear about it via the blog.  LOL

Happy creative endeavors.

Drawing A Blank

Well, sorta. Let me explain. I’m trying to be creative and post something fun on my blog, however, that is not the case. I hit a rougher patch of I need to chill for a while. I wrote more notes for my blog, and a few lines and more notes for the novel, but that’s it.  I also needed more names, and wanted to look at different ones than i have before. For example I did have a few who had names that sounded too much alike. That has to be addressed.

Other than the usual it’s been a simple week with nothing new going on. Perhaps that’s what I needed. Will keep on working towards my goals.  I am happy to post something for the blog. It seems like I’ve gone to an infrequent stage while trying to balance things out.

Happy creative endeavors.

A Really Late Post

I am grateful that I have an opportunity to post this message and be creative when I can have a very chaotic life. I am grateful I have a job, and that I can pay some bills, and have the opportunity to play “catch up” with other bills. I am grateful that I love being creative, and will not give up on my dreams, even when I feel ADHD on projects. That leads me to grateful on putting those topics to a notebook, or a file to have them for later reviews.

Will have to put a finer point on this later. I got stuff to do.

Sluggish

Well finals are over. This is a rare moment as I took no final, yet felt the pain of having to worth through them.  It’s like the experience of taking them intensified, minus the nervous energy, however the demand/need to help patrons still is there, and I was running off of little to minimal sleep, tight schedule, and one day off for the past two weeks. Last Friday, I was thinking I was going to be in a big jam, but I feel good now.

Some balance has been restored, however, some balances need to even out.  I don’t think my sleep pattern has mellowed out to what it needs to be. Until I feel like I’m at 100% I think my creativity is gonna lag some.  Last week I was forgetting names, and lost my appetite. This weekend I ate, remembered stuff, and tried to relax, and goof off.

What has me nervous, and somewhat out of sorts, is back to my novel writing, which is a work in progress. It still has its dystopian elements. It’s still a bizarro genre tale, and I’ve been trying to figure out what influences this story more. It’s its own bird.  LOL New species alert!

This morning I asked myself “what does my MC like/want/love.” This was more in regards to a person as opposed to a goal. I asked this because I wondered how I would explore personal and/or intimate relationships. It sounds simple and somewhat of an afterthought, but while I have a good scenario, I wondered more about who is around him and why, and how he reacts to to them.

That said another character (who is in the original plot) became a lot more clearer to me.  She doesn’t have a direct relationship to the hero (as of now), but I can see her role expanding so I can “see” her more predominately rather than as a simple lampshade in the room. I have to go write that down.

Genre Shifts

I looked back at my notes and writing for the novel, and observed that it has a lot dystopian elements. Being southern, the elements/tools of oppression focus on religion, which is interesting. BTW this isn’t a YA novel–I noticed many of those I hear about–or seen the movie version are dystopia-based. One of them seemed downright post-apocalyptic. That said my main character is nineteen. On a side note I thought of making the lead character forty-something, but I don’t want to overwhelm myself, and may save the idea for another story.

This novel started, and still is a bizarro genre-based story.  The novel still contains a lot of its absurd, weird, and surreal elements, as well as fantastical elements set in the modern world. For the sake of brevity–I’d say this novel is a weird urban fantasy. This all leads me to that I’ve traveled this far with the story, and here I am contemplating what it has become. This has thrown me off a little, yet excited me.

I’m excited because there are elements of the story I didn’t recognize at first, but instead of just touching on them, I can address this material. It represents a shift in some of the plot, and some of the actions/characters. I’m happy that I can make this progress, particularly when I’ve been in a fog of finals, and my creativity took a nose dive off a steep cliff. It’ll still be one word at a time, but with a little more nuance and knowledge.

As always, happy creative endeavors.