Game On

Tomorrow I’ll post my writing goals for the new year. Today I feel lazy and tgat means starting with a blog post, and some coffee. I loves mah caffeine.

Yesterday I spent time on one of my goals, to revise the loglines for my various ideas. It feels easy, but its not. I feel I can do more with being clear and concise. I loathe the idea that I can’t articulate my story in a sentence or two.

Gotta keep on trying to get them better. Eventually I’ll get to a point where for better or worse, it fits. It feels so chaotic to lock down.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

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Slow

Been loafing about all day. Had breakfast late. My bro bought and cooked some gross french fries that not only disappoints, but left me feeling sour. I need a chp of hot noodles and broth to feel ok again.

Writing was small today, but I think that’s what this day needed. I am ok with this. As soon as I don’t feel like crap, I want to get back to my passion.

Happy creative endeavors.

One Word At A Time

Y’all, I am very tried, and stressed. My schedule changed for what I thought was for good. It was earlier than usual, but it was consistent, which made all the difference.  Needles to say my sleep pattern, my eating habits have gone to heck…again.  Now there’s talk of making more changes.

My creativity has bounced up and down so much that it has upset me.  I like to keep something going, and I’m not.  I feel like I got mauled by chaos.  That does not mean I gave up, or giving up.

It means I need to get myself back into writing, which is something not only that I love to do, but is a positive force in my life. I can’t lose the one thing that makes my days brighter.

My emotions are all over the place, as I am frustrated, sad, anxious, and nervous about getting creative endeavors done.  It’s like a crisis before the actual work gets done (pre-crisis?). So now that I have a moment, I need to relax, breathe, and put together a realistic plan.

First, I’m blogging. Second, I need a sharper plan to execute creative goals. I intend to complete some projects, and put some on hold. I don’t want to put them on hold, but I know everything can’t and won’t be done. I have to see some tangible results before the end of the year.

Happy creative endeavors.

Fear

So as I keep working on the novel and progressing, I get this fear going on. A fear that I haven’t developed the main character enough. I’ve done so much world and character building, I hadn’t stopped until now to examine the character.

Also I feel like I’m trying to avoid the issue with him. I’m rather frustrated with myself. I put in my notes that I needed to be more blunt and honest in the writing, otherwise it will look like I’m dancing around the characters and situations without really dealing with them.

Maybe this is anxiety, or me reminding myself to stay on point. Whatever it is, I feel like I need to manage it, and get underway.  Part of what I looked at is whether or not the character is noble (or has a noble sentimentality), or is more of a rogue.

Part of me likes the idea of someone who has faced adversity and willing to fight more in a righteous way. I also love that a person can be lovable and not always willing to do the right thing, and make a hell of a lot of mistakes.

Heroes do know sacrifice, which is inherent in their life and noble.  I dunno. I’m indecisive at the moment.  Maybe it needs to marinate overnight now that I’ve dragged the fear to light and faced it.  No blinking. Gotta get this done.

Happy creative endeavors.

Headache

I didn’t sleep well, and I woke up feeling a touch of a headache I need to address before it becomes a migraine.  With my luck it will turn into a migraine that has me in all sorts of bad ways.

That said I wasn’t very creative, but I need to get on top of that. It always seems that chaos pops up to have a good time when I want to have a breakthrough.  That and I am a hot mess, sometimes, and other times I have clarity.  Damn, it’s hot in this building. I feel extra warm and that annoys meSo I took the pain meds and hopefully I’ll be in shape soon.  Need to make my plans a lot better.  Will discuss that later.

 

Happy creative endeavors.

Sick For Days

Unfortunately, what started as my allergies and sinuses beating on me like an after school bully turned into a moment where I needed to get in bed, and lay in misery as it passed. It took a nasty toll on me as I lost my appetite, and all I wanted to do is try and breath well.  My poor nose went from stopped, to running, to “hey, I can breathe.” My allergy meds may, or may not have been working, or at least taxed. I had to switch meds in order to see some results.

Needless to say, I’m feeling better, so to that, I’m grateful. It will take some time to get back into 100% recover, but that’s expected.

That said little to no writing was done this weekend, but my motto is, to get back on the horse and ride again. So that meant listing out some of the things I want to get done, and boy am I ambitious. That said there are some things I’d like to complete before a talk about them.

One of those goofier distractions I was concerned about was the desire to write more screenplays. What genre, and how many to work on for the remainder of the year. So I wrote down what I want to do, and I’m going to have to tackle it. No way around that. Will have to find a way to make things work.

Happy creative endeavors.

Lovely Eye Allergies

Despite taking my meds, my room is a trap for allergies if I don’t have my fan oscillating. Needless to say, I was cold, and thought just having the air on would suffice. Surprise, surprise, I woke up with burning eyes in spite of taking my meds the day before. Now I gotta deal with this mess, and it’s annoying as all get out. I keep squinting, and one eye keeps tearing.  Someone asked me about eye drops, but I swore off drops after a dreadful experience with them.

Looking back at my notes I can see I wrote out some details from some new characters and a concept I haven’t implemented. No need to, but I’m glad I put it down. What I do have is a lot of gaming notes, which seems to fill my journal pages.  Now I need to write a few lines for the novel, and make this day OK.

Happy creative endeavors.