Hello

It’s one of those days where the sun hits the concrete just right, and it’s so damn bright my eyes can’t take it.  Needless to say, I have to cross the street with the correct traffic, and my poor eyes suffer. Then I walk into a building that is darker and i can’t adjust properly.  I feel like a hot damn mess.

Now, not too much went on yesterday in regards to writing fiction.  However I had some notes I took from a seminar on being a project manager/admin assistant–which was to improve my job skills.

I transcribed the notes and it ended up being five pages!!! I had no idea I took that much notes. With my handwriting it took two pages, as I sectioned off each topic in its own area then moved onto the next.

Something repeated in my notes was embracing change as opposed to be resistant.  I am very interested in the logistics of events, so I need to know about events and how things work.

I need to go over these notes because clearly this is far more information than I realized, and I think I can get more out of the seminar if I keep reviewing the material, and scribbling my own notes/thoughts on them.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

A Routine or Rotation

I’ve got to get myself into a writing rotation. At least one more frequent than I’m ding now.  I may have to wake up early and put down a few lines. That means getting organized, getting to bed earlier, and doing what I have to do to maximize my creative time.

Did manage to get some writing done yesterday, but it was far more random than i think it should have been. Didn’t do any reading, when I spent the day before reading American Gods. I want to read it since there’s a TV adaption on Starz right now, and I kinda want to be ahead of the curve.

So, just like with games when you have to use your abilities in a rotation, that’s how I want to do my writing. I sorta had this fear that writing would become a chore, and I would resent it, but I’ve been writing since childhood, so why should that stop now?  It’s been a chore, but one I love doing.

Also need to add more TV shows and movies into my rotation. I say this because as former professors once said, if you want to write well, you should be watching more TV shows and movies, in addition to reading.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

Creativity

Realized I’m my happiest when I’m being creative.  This means I need more creativity in my days to make them richer and better. Perhaps I can create a project list for myself and manage how they are getting done. At least I’ll have things aligned to a particular way for my benefit.

That said, I did some writing in my notebook for the novel yesterday. It’s rough as all get out, and not even in a first draft of a chapter mode. Just me writing, and getting it from head to my notebook, and eventually my laptop/Word file.

Happy creative endeavors.

Outlined II

Working on my outline and I feel like this is good progress. I found myself writing down stuff in my notebook and even out some potential dialogue. It’s rough as all get out, but it’s a start, right?

That said I like that there is progress and a little pushing to keep up with the writing. The outline will be linger than anticipated, and it will likely require a little more detail per chapter.

I’m trying to tell what happens in each chapter, and see if I need to split things up, or not. It’s just one of those things that requires me to have a seat and work on it for a while. I’m just gonna plug away until it’s done.

Happy creative endeavors.

Simply Complicated

Yesterday a friend suggested–to solve my woes with the main character, that I ask myself, “what does this character really want, and then let him know he will NEVER have what he wants. His reaction to this is what will determine his character.”

That sounded so simple, until I tried to answer the question. Then my brain hurted (yes, I am fully aware that “hurted” is not a word–thought it was funny).

At first I went with his occupation, and knew he was having drama with his career as a painter,  and wanted to be taken seriously as an artist, but that wasn’t it.

The main character struggles with his desire intimacy: He wants to be in love, feel wanted, and be touched, however there’s a vicious social taboo on him.

So knowing he’s longing for something out of reach, I’ve placed him in an open spotlight where he’s the center of attention and controversy. This cause some people to panic, and have some spiteful, petty, and bigoted reactions.

So he wants intimacy, but needs to be respected as well.

His reaction to these events I haven’t fully figured out yet. I don’t want him to run and hide. He needs to stand firm, even though he’s risking harm cause people go out of their way to be petty and evil under the cloak of righteousness.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

Fear

So as I keep working on the novel and progressing, I get this fear going on. A fear that I haven’t developed the main character enough. I’ve done so much world and character building, I hadn’t stopped until now to examine the character.

Also I feel like I’m trying to avoid the issue with him. I’m rather frustrated with myself. I put in my notes that I needed to be more blunt and honest in the writing, otherwise it will look like I’m dancing around the characters and situations without really dealing with them.

Maybe this is anxiety, or me reminding myself to stay on point. Whatever it is, I feel like I need to manage it, and get underway.  Part of what I looked at is whether or not the character is noble (or has a noble sentimentality), or is more of a rogue.

Part of me likes the idea of someone who has faced adversity and willing to fight more in a righteous way. I also love that a person can be lovable and not always willing to do the right thing, and make a hell of a lot of mistakes.

Heroes do know sacrifice, which is inherent in their life and noble.  I dunno. I’m indecisive at the moment.  Maybe it needs to marinate overnight now that I’ve dragged the fear to light and faced it.  No blinking. Gotta get this done.

Happy creative endeavors.

Drawing A Blank

Well, sorta. Let me explain. I’m trying to be creative and post something fun on my blog, however, that is not the case. I hit a rougher patch of I need to chill for a while. I wrote more notes for my blog, and a few lines and more notes for the novel, but that’s it.  I also needed more names, and wanted to look at different ones than i have before. For example I did have a few who had names that sounded too much alike. That has to be addressed.

Other than the usual it’s been a simple week with nothing new going on. Perhaps that’s what I needed. Will keep on working towards my goals.  I am happy to post something for the blog. It seems like I’ve gone to an infrequent stage while trying to balance things out.

Happy creative endeavors.