Triggered…Sorta

It’s been a hectic week since my last post.  Had a fam emergency that demanded my time and attention. It wasn’t pretty, but that fam member is getting better.  Needless to say this crisis left me a little drained.

I’ve still been writing, and have been doing some dialogue driven scenes that I need to work on more since I added a forth character who is bringing her brand of conflict to the story.  I don’t “hear” her voice as clear as the other characters, so I’m annoyed that hasn’t happened yet, so in due time.

The novel, which has me triggered (sorta), because yesterday I wrote a scene  in which was not terrible, but dealt with abuse, and it made me feel bad, however it was very necessary because at one point the main character has to make a choice about who is good, and how inhumane people have been to him.  The scene pinched me for a few reasons; Abuse is difficult to discuss, let alone write or read. The abusers are so dehumanizing, I found myself upset.

That said, I do feel bad things do happen to good people, and the terrible circumstances are beyond the control of ourselves. Also to experience such a dehumanizing low, and to rise above it, makes me feel a lot better knowing the character has dignity and personal strength.  I have a lot to work on in this story.  This is just one of them.

After leaving that scene alone for a long while, I thought the novel wasn’t weird enough for a bizarro story, and suddenly there was this giant rooster used to travel to the moon.  So abuse, dehumanizing, overcoming obstacles, and a moon-hopping chicken.  BTW the abuse isn’t in every scene, but for the protagonist, it’s something he can’t forget or dismiss, but I’d like to think-at least at this point-that he will overcome the negativity and not become a monster because if it.

 

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A Thursday Worth Having is A Good One

So, my tablet is dying, and my laptop is kinda wonky which may mean it’s on its last leg.  Not too happy about that, and I don’t know what to say about my tablet at the moment other than I’m frustrated.

Spent a lot of time randomly writing, and trying NOT to think too hard on the direction, but to let it fall into place.  This meant I am simply not too worried about too much, or when it crosses my mind that I fill in that blank as I go along. Why am I doing this? I found my myself congested with thoughts on previous material where I kept choking on getting it done because too much work went into planning, and not enough on executing.

So I’m happier, and I keep wanting to know, what happens next, so I keep writing.  So far, so good.  All I can say is it involves family, and I keep wondering how they are going to resolve their issues, or perhaps they won’t.  The story took another turn on the way home (I wasn’t driving), so I tried to type it out, but this phone is horrible as far as typing, and the auto-correct doesn’t want to be my friend in this endeavor.

That said, I need to correct the crappy car writing I did so it looks like I understand English and punctuation usage because I was onto something.  I’ll see where this goes and move from here.

P.S. I’m gonna try this method with the novel. I already know enough and it’s time to let the characters speak to each other.

Happy creative endeavors.

Drawing A Blank

Well, sorta. Let me explain. I’m trying to be creative and post something fun on my blog, however, that is not the case. I hit a rougher patch of I need to chill for a while. I wrote more notes for my blog, and a few lines and more notes for the novel, but that’s it.  I also needed more names, and wanted to look at different ones than i have before. For example I did have a few who had names that sounded too much alike. That has to be addressed.

Other than the usual it’s been a simple week with nothing new going on. Perhaps that’s what I needed. Will keep on working towards my goals.  I am happy to post something for the blog. It seems like I’ve gone to an infrequent stage while trying to balance things out.

Happy creative endeavors.

Tuesday Starts Slow

Felt so sluggish this morning, and coffee didn’t help me in the least. I should have skipped it altogether, but then that nagging feeling of, “you should have tried it,” would live in my thoughts. Didn’t want that in my day.  Needless to say, I’m awake, and stuff needs to be done. Time to get back on the horse and write more material. I must add the allergy meds have a slight drowsy effect on me. I hate changing them, because my system has to get used to it, and that takes time.

Observed in my notes that I wanted to adjust the setting of my novel. It’s not a major setback in the least, but I thought of new locations, and that came with a different set of personal desires and goals for the MC. It also helps tie some of the themes together. I found myself referencing some material to research, and added some other things–thus expanding the idea beyond what I thought it could be.

I believe the previous written material for the novel could seamlessly blend with the newer ideas IF I put the effort forth to think it through and execute it. My greatest fear was I would overwork the material. It’s a novel in the bizarro genre, however it has strong contemporary fantasy elements. I feel I represent the genre elements, but there was a few story elements missing. I dare say I compartmentalize a lot of parts, and need to get them organized.

Speaking of efforts, I was chatting with my brother about a subject/genre for a screenplay and was hesitant of the combo. Of course I realized I could write what I wanted without worry, AND get it done. That worry dissolved into humor. I needed to remind myself to focus and worry less about can I or can’t I. The reasons never seem to be something substantial.

Other than these factors, I will try to keep positive and productive. It seems to be the right thing to do to keep a balance in my structure.

Happy creative endeavors.

Sick For Days

Unfortunately, what started as my allergies and sinuses beating on me like an after school bully turned into a moment where I needed to get in bed, and lay in misery as it passed. It took a nasty toll on me as I lost my appetite, and all I wanted to do is try and breath well.  My poor nose went from stopped, to running, to “hey, I can breathe.” My allergy meds may, or may not have been working, or at least taxed. I had to switch meds in order to see some results.

Needless to say, I’m feeling better, so to that, I’m grateful. It will take some time to get back into 100% recover, but that’s expected.

That said little to no writing was done this weekend, but my motto is, to get back on the horse and ride again. So that meant listing out some of the things I want to get done, and boy am I ambitious. That said there are some things I’d like to complete before a talk about them.

One of those goofier distractions I was concerned about was the desire to write more screenplays. What genre, and how many to work on for the remainder of the year. So I wrote down what I want to do, and I’m going to have to tackle it. No way around that. Will have to find a way to make things work.

Happy creative endeavors.

Delayed Dreams

So, between my own procrastination, and the distractions that kept happening, I didn’t do much in the way of writing this weekend. That said, I do believe in getting back in the wagon and writing again. I have to remind myself that I have delayed my dreams of being a novelist, screenwriting, and TV scripts. Sounds bleak, but it’s the mess I’ve made.

What I did do is add some notes, and a few lines to the noel. Not too much progress. I also created a background for a character I have no idea how it will be used at the moment, I did write down some dialog for an idea that I hope to use in a screenplay, but I need to outline it before I go further.

What I did do, and thought over this morning was the TV spec pilot and two subsequent episodes I wrote. I’m at the point where I’ve completely “forgotten” the material, and I need to go back and do real quality revisions to make it look good.–I still hated the final act, and I revised that thing so much–with frustration for not making it better.  I got pissed off, and needed to leave it be.

It’s been a while, and I think now is a perfect time to look and revise it.  I feel I can cut things without feeling like a mad butcher.  By the way, I liked writing the third episode the most, as it felt like I had gotten stronger with the material. The spec pilot and second episode need some mad work though.

That said, I want to look back at it, and see what could be done to make the series better, and how to improve what I wrote.

Happy creative endeavors.

I Need a Meal

Started this post before I ate. I was distracted by hunger. I, however got a meal, and less about food, and more about what’s next.

That said, while putting away books, I had ideas for storylines, and character voices which I liked. Another idea I’m contemplating is merging a couple of characters. Originally one character has a more important role at the start of the novel, but no deeper plans than that. As I wrote her, I wondered where would she be later on as opposed to a supporting character.

With a guide for one of the character’s voices I see him in a different light that I did before, and he feels stronger than before. So I need to go write out some dialog now.

Happy creative endeavors.