I Can’t Believe It’s Not Monday

Well this has been a long time coming, and I’ve been feeling a bit pressed and dealing with some twists and turns.  First my schedule changed, so it’s been me lagging everywhere. Which time changes come different duties, and that kept me pressed.

I’ve been sleep deprived trying to manged my day, and not wanting to be lagging. I also gave up lattes for a couple of weeks because, it was too pricey, and the local coffee shop closed for two weeks, which made my decision easier to handle.

That said I don’t feel creative and often don’t, but this is a hot mess that needs to be fixed. I need to press myself forward and write more.  So, as always, I start with a blog post, and hope that I make some writing happen. I also may have to go back on my word and get a latte, or some coffee.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

I Need A Distraction

This distraction needs to be a writing task. For some reason I feel I am so far off track with ideas and can’t get myself together. Perhaps it’s time to start a new screenplay or script for a comic to get my mind off my current project.

So this will get my gears going and help me focus on something that’s productive since I can’t get this novel to gel the way I need to.  Screenplays I can get done and focus on.  I feel like a mess right now.

Something’s stressing me out, and I need it to go away ASAP. This means looking at what’s going on.  Time to start a day journal and see where my time goes. It may be that I’ve gamed too much and now I’m bored that I’m not gaming.  Life is more than games, despite the fun they are.  Games ain’t paying my bills, nor is it 100% fulfilling me.

If it were a job though. I wonder how good I’d be.  LOL

Happy creative endeavors.

Listing

I have a lot of lists to work on.  They were to do things I decided that were important enough to write down yesterday, and review today to modify as needed. I even made a dinner menu to work on for the upcoming months.

I need to get to work on this . It won’t be too consuming, but I’m a get some stuff done.  I aim to have things completed or on a strong daily rotation with deadlines.

Happy creative endeavors.

Creativity

Realized I’m my happiest when I’m being creative.  This means I need more creativity in my days to make them richer and better. Perhaps I can create a project list for myself and manage how they are getting done. At least I’ll have things aligned to a particular way for my benefit.

That said, I did some writing in my notebook for the novel yesterday. It’s rough as all get out, and not even in a first draft of a chapter mode. Just me writing, and getting it from head to my notebook, and eventually my laptop/Word file.

Happy creative endeavors.

World Building

I’m working on more notes for the novel, and what I’m learning about world building is that it is not as simple as I initially believed, thought, or invested time in. There are points where I questioned character’s motives, what key icons are constantly seen the world.

There was a point where I saw the antagonist and asked in my notebook, what does he do for a living. How does he get things together, and what motivates him when he gets up. None of this has made the character sympathetic to me–he’s not supposed to by, but I was worried I’d go too far.

On top of this, I asked myself what is this story about. NOTE: Not the plot, but the story’s about.  I came up with a few ideas, but they should be simple. For example; this novel is about challenging the status quo, or, this novel is about embracing your fear for fun and profit. So I need to work on what I believe the novel is about without telling people the plot.

That said, all I can do is keep inching towards greatness. Those last three words could easily be what my story’s about. Happy creative accidents are good accidents.

Happy creative endeavors.

Into and Out of Love

This blog used to be filled with essays on film and television shows. I created it for that purpose. I used to have a personal blog that I filled with daily chatter, while CINES chatted about film and television.

I felt closer to the text, loved every bit of it, and pushed myself further to explore more topics in film. Then that love dwindled. I feel like I took a turn into deep chaos in a way I fully can’t explain, but my enjoyment for film and television went to a crawl. That’s never a good thing for someone who loves what they wrote about.

Perhaps this was a depression that I didn’t recognize, or a moment where other events overrode something I enjoyed. As a friend pointed out, “one step at a time.” I cannot get from under a cloud and expect an instant return. It truly is a piece by piece effort to regain your foothold and be a better man.

Some of the chaos was released, and left me. Thank God.

Still I gotta grow from where I was, to a better spot. This means focus, effort, and inching towards some form of personal success. So one day I will fall back in love with the things I once had a passion for writing about all the time.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

Sunday and the Slumps

Hello World,

I was ready to procrastinate, when I told myself, you have at least got to put out a blog post. Help yourself, man.  That’s my rationale, and I’m sticking to it. I’ve been non-creative for the past few days as I try to get myself in order, and stressing out over stuff I have no control over. Well, as I sit across my bed telling myself I will not allow distractions, it’s time to get myself back together.

First, I made some coffee.  Need that coffee to start the day. Second, I need this blog post.  This post signifies how well I’m a get stuff done today. It an be done if I put the effort towards it. Nothing needs to be perfect, just done.

Creativity all but ran away and hid. Its time for me to find it, and drag it back in front of the laptop. I need for things to work. That overwhelming feeling did tend to negate my feelings of positivity, but this is a new day, and rather than repeat what happened yesterday. Even if all I can muster is five fresh/revived sentences, then that’s a good start to something better than where I was.

As always, happy creative endeavors.