Monday, Not Cranky

Sometimes I have to be grateful for little victories. I sometimes get up and am crank the whole day. Today I woke up, did what had to be done, and now I’m awake with no signs of being highly irritated. That alone feels great.

That said I was a LAZY writer over the weekend. I lived to distract, procrastinate, and have time for family. Decided maybe, just maybe might be time for an RPG game because playing MOBAs has stressed me.

When playing with people, they either work together, or they fall apart as a team. After a few matches that turned into hot messes, I had enough. None of that made me want to write though.  I embarrass myself.

I’ve also been in an online class to write better for TV. Typing my notes gave me an opportunity to review what I was processing, and I rethought the spec pilot fantasy script I wrote a while back. For clarity, I wrote a pilot and two additional episodes.  HATED the first episode, and rewrote parts of it extensively.

The second was tossed and rewritten, and I liked the third.  It seems I worked my way up to a likable spot. Still, I need to look at this and see if I can make it work. I enjoyed writing, it was that I was inadequately able to give the material the polish it needs.

Writing is very much a long, long road. Yet, I never want to give it up, or not try to make better stories.

Happy creative endeavors.

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Cranky

Today, even with coffee I am cranky. Maybe I didn’t get enough sleep.  I know I’m in a mood, because I am mildly annoyed with everyone and everything.  Needless to say I feel drained, and no, I don’t need more coffee. I’m just gonna have to go through this little mood until it leaves me be.

It doesn’t mean I’m rude to people, or that I’m blasting people. I  keep the mood to myself, but OMG I could go back to bed, and not be asked a single question or talked to for the next few hours. For the record I like being nice to people, so I even if I am in a mood, I try to give people the best of me so I don’t give them the worst of me.

I firmly believe my bad mood shouldn’t be something to give to others. Discussing it via blog helps me manage my mood in some ways.  Also being kind perks me up a little more.

Writing went up and down. Wrote out a lot of thoughts, ideas, and even tried to boil my working ideas into two sentences–my version of a high concept. Some ideas felt inspired to where I liked what I wrote the first time. Other ideas needed several revisions before they arrived at being remotely a satisfied point.

Now all of those ideas need a “time out” moment before they are looked again.  Other than that I will remain cranky, polite, and keep writing.  This week is so darn odd. LOL

Happy creative endeavors.

 

Family Affair

After yesterday’s post I let some ideas marinate some more and found myself asking why these characters do what they do. I took it a step further and decided I should do it in two or less sentences.

Dad: He resents the hell outta his family for cramping his free-spirited style and punished them with 100% no contact for years.  Now he wants a second chance.

Mom: Hates feeling vulnerable after hubby dumped her and the kids, and this has lead to eventual toughness, and her second chance with her son. She fears she’s falling back into old patterns, especially when her husband comes back into their lives.

First Son: Embraces his vices (drinking, gambling, affairs) as they serve his narcissism, and thus makes him feel better about himself.  It’s really about what people can do for him.

Second Son: Has had an emotional disconnect with the world, and has a new chance at life, but must find his voice/confidence, or he’ll drag himself and others down. Often spends time peacefully in his thoughts.

I have more ideas for characters, namely the grandparents. The main thing was to get the family in place.

Also this is a sort of fantastical story, however the characters needed to feel real to me, or else they’d simply be passive in the world. The true tension will come from people not events.

I Can’t Believe It’s Not Monday

Well this has been a long time coming, and I’ve been feeling a bit pressed and dealing with some twists and turns.  First my schedule changed, so it’s been me lagging everywhere. Which time changes come different duties, and that kept me pressed.

I’ve been sleep deprived trying to manged my day, and not wanting to be lagging. I also gave up lattes for a couple of weeks because, it was too pricey, and the local coffee shop closed for two weeks, which made my decision easier to handle.

That said I don’t feel creative and often don’t, but this is a hot mess that needs to be fixed. I need to press myself forward and write more.  So, as always, I start with a blog post, and hope that I make some writing happen. I also may have to go back on my word and get a latte, or some coffee.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

I Need A Distraction

This distraction needs to be a writing task. For some reason I feel I am so far off track with ideas and can’t get myself together. Perhaps it’s time to start a new screenplay or script for a comic to get my mind off my current project.

So this will get my gears going and help me focus on something that’s productive since I can’t get this novel to gel the way I need to.  Screenplays I can get done and focus on.  I feel like a mess right now.

Something’s stressing me out, and I need it to go away ASAP. This means looking at what’s going on.  Time to start a day journal and see where my time goes. It may be that I’ve gamed too much and now I’m bored that I’m not gaming.  Life is more than games, despite the fun they are.  Games ain’t paying my bills, nor is it 100% fulfilling me.

If it were a job though. I wonder how good I’d be.  LOL

Happy creative endeavors.

Listing

I have a lot of lists to work on.  They were to do things I decided that were important enough to write down yesterday, and review today to modify as needed. I even made a dinner menu to work on for the upcoming months.

I need to get to work on this . It won’t be too consuming, but I’m a get some stuff done.  I aim to have things completed or on a strong daily rotation with deadlines.

Happy creative endeavors.

Creativity

Realized I’m my happiest when I’m being creative.  This means I need more creativity in my days to make them richer and better. Perhaps I can create a project list for myself and manage how they are getting done. At least I’ll have things aligned to a particular way for my benefit.

That said, I did some writing in my notebook for the novel yesterday. It’s rough as all get out, and not even in a first draft of a chapter mode. Just me writing, and getting it from head to my notebook, and eventually my laptop/Word file.

Happy creative endeavors.