One Word At A Time

Y’all, I am very tried, and stressed. My schedule changed for what I thought was for good. It was earlier than usual, but it was consistent, which made all the difference.  Needles to say my sleep pattern, my eating habits have gone to heck…again.  Now there’s talk of making more changes.

My creativity has bounced up and down so much that it has upset me.  I like to keep something going, and I’m not.  I feel like I got mauled by chaos.  That does not mean I gave up, or giving up.

It means I need to get myself back into writing, which is something not only that I love to do, but is a positive force in my life. I can’t lose the one thing that makes my days brighter.

My emotions are all over the place, as I am frustrated, sad, anxious, and nervous about getting creative endeavors done.  It’s like a crisis before the actual work gets done (pre-crisis?). So now that I have a moment, I need to relax, breathe, and put together a realistic plan.

First, I’m blogging. Second, I need a sharper plan to execute creative goals. I intend to complete some projects, and put some on hold. I don’t want to put them on hold, but I know everything can’t and won’t be done. I have to see some tangible results before the end of the year.

Happy creative endeavors.

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“C and Split the Difference”

“C” is for confidant, or “Stay confidant.” It’s my mantra when approaching goals, as my days stay chaotic.  I wish to keep myself moving forward with my dreams and goals, and even small tasks have been tied up, so a pleasant reminder helps.

“Split the Difference”  is me wanting to buy something, and it costs a lot. I tell myself simply cut the amount I want to spend. This is helping my reduce spending, and get on top of bills.

That said, I’m been reduced to a day of blogging, as my hours have changed more, and I’m working six days a week. Needless to say, that has really been tiring. My eating/appetite went deep into chaos. Sleep is a hot mess.

Still, I’m going to press forward, let the negative fall to the wayside, and keep looking at my own goals for personal growth and success. Not giving up on myself.

Happy creative endeavors.

Truth Is…

Trut is I haven’t been blogging much, but it didn’t mean I stopped writing, which kept up.  I’ve also been taking writing more classes and trying to get myself in order. On top of that it seems my schedule has conflicted with everything; my life, diet, sleep, and creativity.  I am not a happy camper.

That out of the way, let’s talk of pleasant things.  One of my writing lessons has been to look for the emotional payoff of characters in a story.  So, the question of “what’s this story really about,” sunk in for me.

After much contemplation I found myself writing down something that was too real and raw for me, personally.  It really pinched a nerve, in addition to being an emotion I felt I could explore and discuss.

My initial reaction was to pause, let the words cool down, then I went on to working on technical aspects (outline). Still there’s an elephant in my room that’s being ignored, because I felt I was shying away from my own story/character epiphany.

So as chaotic as things may be, the current goal is to get back to the heart of what I discovered, write it out, and work through a pinched moment.

On a side note I am glad I paused from blogging.  It helped me want to blog again.

Happy creative endeavors.

Thoughts

As the day passed, and ideas floated about, eager to be penned, I wondered how well I’d fare with more vulgarity in my creative writing.  

Not necessarily a profanity-laced tirade, but some profane elements scattered throughout a story. Would be enough to make this Charleston-born writer produce some page turning stories? 

Truthfully, I’ve always wanted to free myself from exclusively thinking/staying inside my comfort zone, shock myself, and press forward. Part of me stays in a never-ending struggle with my inner censor, and I hope to silence him with this insight.  

Keep in mind I’m no stranger to puns, innuendo, double (or triple) entendres. I’ve always used them in the spirit of humor, silliness, and for goofy moments. I, however, do those on whims, and I imagine a sustained writing goal may yield some fascinating results.  

I feel very impish in my actions, and it’s totally worth it if I can laugh and entertain. That, and it totally amuses me to break out of my comfort zone with no apologies, which can be my default reaction.   

As always, happy creative endeavors.

Sunday

Today day I feel a little bored, and less desire to write. I, however, told myself that I’m gonna put some things down, and that includes a blog post.  It’s a mix of feeling blah, and a little meh-ish.  Usually it goes away, but today I don’t want to wait for it to depart before I type something.

I did finish my writing for television class, and it took forever, and I wish I completed it sooner. I typed out the last of my notes, and will review them soon. There was a lot of stuff I knew, thought I knew, and study I’m eager to try out.

It does make me want to look back at my previous material and see if it can be revised with the guidelines. I certainly hope to at least take one project and rewrite it to fit the proper format, and change the ending (I hated the ending, and knew it had to go).

Go me. Blog post done when i was feeling like loafing about.  If only all material came this easy.

Happy creative endeavors.

Getting Back In Order

There will always be chaos going on around me. This week is no different.  For the record not only did my allergies give me some hell, my Mom got sick. This meant taking her to the ER to make sure she could get some immediate medical attention.  I’m glad we went, as she seemed to be getting worse, but the trip and treatment helped her out immensely.

On a side note, while we were waiting for her to be called, I pulled out my Moleskin, and wrote some ideas down for a dramatic comedy I said I wanted to start.  At the very least, if this idea has to go on the back burner, I can go back and look it over and make revisions as needed.

Mom is on the slow road to recovery, and I need her to relax and remain calm.  By her own nature she wants to be up and about, and that’s not acceptable to me.  The reason is a day ago she didn’t have energy, and now she wants to multitask.  Since I’m home to assist her, I feel she should simply recuperate.

That said, I spent a lot of time hearing my name called over, and over, and over.  A brother was on the go, and had little to no time to get himself together a way that was writing-intensive.

When I got up today, it didn’t dawn on me to do my blog. I haven’t even had a glass of water and I need to drink a few glasses.  I should eat something too, and figure out what i want for dinner.

As always, happy creative endeavor.

I Don’t Feel Like Writing

I’m tired, I didn’t get enough sleep, and I had to be to work early. The day seemed to lag as bad as an online game can sometimes.  I really wanted to loaf about and not even think about doing anything.  So, as I sat in my recliner and contemplated loafing are, I reminded myself that it wouldn’t kill me to complete a blog post.

Not doing much at the moment, however that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t rest or write.  I can do both.  So blog post now, and a little more creative writing soon.

Happy creative endeavors.