Weird Ideas, Gaming, Goofing, and Writing

If I learned anything in my life, my goofiest ideas are often the most interesting angle I can have on a story, and should write them down even if thy don’t make 100% sense. I have lists of nonsense words I keep just so I can review and use them later, BTW.¬† ūüôā

Yesterday was a slow day where I recovered from the after effects of a migraine, and tried to take things slow. I had a few ideas for some things for the novel and they still don’t make 100% sense, however, maybe they shouldn’t, at the moment.

If given enough time to think on them, I’m sure they will add a nice layer to the story.¬† I still feel I have a LONG way to go with this novel. It never feels right or complete.¬† I need a writing life coach.

Happy creative endeavors.

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Cranky

Today, even with coffee I am cranky. Maybe I didn’t get enough sleep.¬† I know I’m in a mood, because I am mildly annoyed with everyone and everything.¬† Needless to say I feel drained, and no, I don’t need more coffee. I’m just gonna have to go through this little mood until it leaves me be.

It doesn’t mean I’m rude to people, or that I’m blasting people. I¬† keep the mood to myself, but OMG I could go back to bed, and not be asked a single question or talked to for the next few hours. For the record I like being nice to people, so I even if I am in a mood, I try to give people the best of me so I don’t give them the worst of me.

I firmly believe my bad mood shouldn’t be something to give to others. Discussing it via blog helps me manage my mood in some ways.¬† Also being kind perks me up a little more.

Writing went up and down. Wrote out a lot of thoughts, ideas, and even tried to boil my working ideas into two sentences–my version of a high concept. Some ideas felt inspired to where I liked what I wrote the first time. Other ideas needed several revisions before they arrived at being remotely a satisfied point.

Now all of those ideas need a “time out” moment before they are looked again.¬† Other than that I will remain cranky, polite, and keep writing.¬† This week is so darn odd. LOL

Happy creative endeavors.

 

Tigress in a Business Suit

 

That’s how I describe my character from a simple idea in yesterday’s post. ¬†She came from a joke I made about a mom who sabotages her son. It was a raw idea that marinated overnight.

I figured mom is angry at her husband- who abandoned her after she had their second child, and this son looks exactly like him.  She took out her frustrations on himРInadvertently or not.

Later in life she thinks she loses him, and then feels guilty that she truly messed up his life, and hers. If she got a second chance, she would be a better person and a mother. She gets her chance, and she does as promised.

I like this character more and more. She fits nicely into a story I wrote down and created a mom, but had no clue who she was and what she wanted/needed. ¬†She’s only one character, so I have a lot of work to do, For the record there are two siblings, and the dad in the story. ¬†Perhaps they will become clearer to me.

That, and I need more off hand jokes to marinate on.  LOL

As always, happy creative endeavors.

Tuesday and Mom Thinks It’s Wednesday

It’s funny cause my Mom was telling me she was sure it’s Wednesday. I’m like, way to undermine my confidence –in jest, of course. Sometimes days seem to run together and blend, which can be frustrating, BUT is a small thing to overcome.

That said, it’s part of my day now, and I’ve gotten in the habit of noticing things and writing them down. ¬†Why write them down? It’s part of writing, and often leads to other ideas. ¬†For example; what would happen if we were thrown off not for a moment, but for years, and we have to put our life back together?

Or, what if a parent was undermining their child? ¬†A bit dark, but I’m intrigued enough to want to explore the concept more (which started off as confusion and a joke)

It’s the stuff of creativity, which is the house I dwell in, so nothing’s too small to overlook, in regards to ideas and putting them down on paper. ¬†Ideas are fine, but to take this further would require more thought and details to turn this from simple ideas to a premise that makes me, the writer, want to work more on it, BUT I know now there’s a start.

Happy creative endeavors.

Post-Coffee Posting

Last night, I went to bed early for me (12:30) and this morning woke up to an alarm feeling very, very sluggish. My eyes were heavy, I was slow as all get out, and coffee was needed for my future. Opened blinds to get a blast of sunlight, which did not improve my disposition.  It hurt my eyes. I just wanted to shut them, and if I could, go lay back down.

My family was up and about, annoying me with perkiness and questions, like “how are you this morning,” and “hello.” I only replied with a series of grunts and groans. ¬†I got my coffee, and before I could sip, I was pelted with more perky questions. ¬†I really needed them to stop. I’m still traumatized by getting up, and moving about. ¬†Let the coffee work on me.

Finally I felt somewhat awake and was open to communicating with the fam.

For the record I did do some writing yesterday. I am glad that I did. It was some simple stuff I can need to type, but the important thing was that i got myself writing some material. Hopefully I’ll repeat the process today. Pen and paper works for the moment. Better go with the flow.

Happy creative endeavors.

Triggered…Sorta

It’s been a hectic week since my last post. ¬†Had a fam emergency that demanded my time and attention. It wasn’t pretty, but that fam member is getting better. ¬†Needless to say this crisis left me a little drained.

I’ve still been writing, and have been doing some dialogue driven scenes that I need to work on more since I added a forth character who is bringing her brand of conflict to the story. ¬†I don’t “hear” her voice as clear as the other characters, so I’m annoyed that hasn’t happened yet, so in due time.

The novel, which has me triggered (sorta), because yesterday I wrote a scene  in which was not terrible, but dealt with abuse, and it made me feel bad, however it was very necessary because at one point the main character has to make a choice about who is good, and how inhumane people have been to him.  The scene pinched me for a few reasons; Abuse is difficult to discuss, let alone write or read. The abusers are so dehumanizing, I found myself upset.

That said, I do feel bad things do happen to good people, and the terrible circumstances are beyond the control of ourselves. Also to experience such a dehumanizing low, and to rise above it, makes me feel a lot better knowing the character has dignity and personal strength.  I have a lot to work on in this story.  This is just one of them.

After leaving that scene alone for a long while, I thought the novel wasn’t weird enough for a bizarro story, and suddenly there was this giant rooster used to travel to the moon. ¬†So abuse, dehumanizing, overcoming obstacles, and a moon-hopping chicken. ¬†BTW the abuse isn’t in every scene, but for the protagonist, it’s something he can’t forget or dismiss, but I’d like to think-at least at this point-that he will overcome the negativity and not become a monster because if it.

 

PS On My Novel Writing

Hello All,

I am still working on the novel. I wanted to do a brief update, so as to not lose track of my progress. Yesterday, on my way to lunch, I had this idea for the MC’s background. Not radical makeover of an idea, but rather filling out who he is, and what he does.

I quickly pulled out my phone and added it to a doc app.  This new phone has a weird auto-correct, so I had to take my time and write out a few lines.  Pulled the doc out later, and elaborated on this. About to do some more work on this aspect.

It makes sense to me, this direction, and I’m glad for the random bit of inspiration while zoning out and thinking only of food. I was hungry, and on a budget. LOL

Still obsessed with Smite item building, though.  LOL Maximize potential.

As always, happy creative endeavors.