No Bad Dreams Allowed

Last night I had a dream where I decided to take up running. Cool running outfit and everything. As I ran, I was ready for the pain associated with me trying to exercise; shortness of breath, pain in my legs, and chest, and wanting to fall on the floor and lay there until I calm down.

To my surprise, there was no pain, or negative symptoms. Even better I felt energized, so I kept running.  I woke up from that dream feeling happy. It that moment I saw myself as strong, enduring, and moving towards greatness and happiness.

I like this dream, simple, sweet, and didn’t have me waking up feeling confused, disrupted, or upset — as sometimes my dreams can leave me in those states.  

For the record, I don’t know what this dream fully meant. My interpretation is that I’m doing something good, or about to go in the right direction. Can I have more dreams like this one?  

That said I wasn’t writing for a few weeks as things got very chaotic, BUT I think I was fortunate to have the luxury to abandon projects temporarily. As I review the notes I see them with fresher, eyes. Some things make more sense, and had me thinking and writing down  my thoughts.  

Happy creative endeavors.  

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Visions of Love and Writing

This is completely separate from my own current ambitious with projects, but I’ve always wanted to write a collection of love stories.

The goal would be to write, enjoy, and share them. I kinda even want a visual component to them to make it seem a little more fantastical and theatrical (love comics or films).  I want to have fun with the genre without a care in the world.

This will likely have me creating stories that are filled with sex, mythology, humor, and varying stages romance.

This been a dream of mine for a long time. I think it comes from watching melodramas, space operas, and reading comics for ages.  They’ve revisited my imagination—sorta.

Happy creative endeavors.

An Emotional Response

Here’s something I was thinking about, in regards to writing stories and scripts. I was wondering what and how I, the writer, can create something that I, the viewer, could emotionally respond to. Sounds simpler in my head.

A while ago, I wrote out a story where the characters’ actions dictated a lot of the conflict, as opposed to dialogue. It had a sense of urgency and danger, and I kept the scene, not knowing how or when to use it.

I experimented with this method a couple of times, then abandoned it. There was, however, something to be said when you can only imagine parts of the sounds and words, as well as feeling the urgency and danger.

I think that time has come to revisit this aspect of writing.  I don’t have a why now so much as it crossed my mind moment, and I’m always looking at ways to tell stories and retain some impact past a moment.

Happy creative endeavors.

Tigress in a Business Suit

 

That’s how I describe my character from a simple idea in yesterday’s post.  She came from a joke I made about a mom who sabotages her son. It was a raw idea that marinated overnight.

I figured mom is angry at her husband- who abandoned her after she had their second child, and this son looks exactly like him.  She took out her frustrations on him– Inadvertently or not.

Later in life she thinks she loses him, and then feels guilty that she truly messed up his life, and hers. If she got a second chance, she would be a better person and a mother. She gets her chance, and she does as promised.

I like this character more and more. She fits nicely into a story I wrote down and created a mom, but had no clue who she was and what she wanted/needed.  She’s only one character, so I have a lot of work to do, For the record there are two siblings, and the dad in the story.  Perhaps they will become clearer to me.

That, and I need more off hand jokes to marinate on.  LOL

As always, happy creative endeavors.

Tuesday and Mom Thinks It’s Wednesday

It’s funny cause my Mom was telling me she was sure it’s Wednesday. I’m like, way to undermine my confidence –in jest, of course. Sometimes days seem to run together and blend, which can be frustrating, BUT is a small thing to overcome.

That said, it’s part of my day now, and I’ve gotten in the habit of noticing things and writing them down.  Why write them down? It’s part of writing, and often leads to other ideas.  For example; what would happen if we were thrown off not for a moment, but for years, and we have to put our life back together?

Or, what if a parent was undermining their child?  A bit dark, but I’m intrigued enough to want to explore the concept more (which started off as confusion and a joke)

It’s the stuff of creativity, which is the house I dwell in, so nothing’s too small to overlook, in regards to ideas and putting them down on paper.  Ideas are fine, but to take this further would require more thought and details to turn this from simple ideas to a premise that makes me, the writer, want to work more on it, BUT I know now there’s a start.

Happy creative endeavors.

Simply Complicated

Yesterday a friend suggested–to solve my woes with the main character, that I ask myself, “what does this character really want, and then let him know he will NEVER have what he wants. His reaction to this is what will determine his character.”

That sounded so simple, until I tried to answer the question. Then my brain hurted (yes, I am fully aware that “hurted” is not a word–thought it was funny).

At first I went with his occupation, and knew he was having drama with his career as a painter,  and wanted to be taken seriously as an artist, but that wasn’t it.

The main character struggles with his desire intimacy: He wants to be in love, feel wanted, and be touched, however there’s a vicious social taboo on him.

So knowing he’s longing for something out of reach, I’ve placed him in an open spotlight where he’s the center of attention and controversy. This cause some people to panic, and have some spiteful, petty, and bigoted reactions.

So he wants intimacy, but needs to be respected as well.

His reaction to these events I haven’t fully figured out yet. I don’t want him to run and hide. He needs to stand firm, even though he’s risking harm cause people go out of their way to be petty and evil under the cloak of righteousness.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

A Wednesday

Today calls for light rain, and that’s fine. I did the writing I said I was going to do in yesterday’s post. It was not what I expected.  For clarity, I said I was going to write some poems from the main character’s (and allies) perspective to help me see who they are in this novel.

Writing a poem from the protagonist’s perspective proved to be tricky and broken. Broken because I kept getting distracted repeatedly. I did get a point of view, and I hope to have time to work on this more.  As a main character I know he’s going through phases, and I need to address the final phase as a hero, which he may, or may not understand and want.  I need to “hear” what he’s saying.

The allies have proved to be easier. I wrote something already on one of them, and decided that it was the right way to go with that character.  That character is a trickster archetype, so my notes reflect exactly what I want to say. I still need to write a poem from his POV because I feel it will help me ease into his thoughts better.

The third character is tricky because in my notes I knew what I wanted and who I said she was, and the fact that she shifts a lot in her her persona and actions (her archetype is shape shifter). I suppose this is more like a duality, but I understand where her conflict lies.

Another ally to work on, for the moment, is also a bit of a shapeshifter archetype, since he has opposing viewpoints, but isn’t evil. He’s more of a reluctant ally, and while I can hear his voice, I can’t nail down his point of view yet.  I do think if I look back at what I wrote for him (for the novel), I’ll hear his voice better.

Happy creative endeavors.