I Need A Distraction

This distraction needs to be a writing task. For some reason I feel I am so far off track with ideas and can’t get myself together. Perhaps it’s time to start a new screenplay or script for a comic to get my mind off my current project.

So this will get my gears going and help me focus on something that’s productive since I can’t get this novel to gel the way I need to.  Screenplays I can get done and focus on.  I feel like a mess right now.

Something’s stressing me out, and I need it to go away ASAP. This means looking at what’s going on.  Time to start a day journal and see where my time goes. It may be that I’ve gamed too much and now I’m bored that I’m not gaming.  Life is more than games, despite the fun they are.  Games ain’t paying my bills, nor is it 100% fulfilling me.

If it were a job though. I wonder how good I’d be.  LOL

Happy creative endeavors.


This Day…

Didn’t do much today. Didn’t feel like I got enough sleep, and didn’t do a blog post at the time I normally do. I’ve been a little obsessed with some dialog I wrote for a different story, and while I have yet to format this material, I still think of it, and tinkered with it yesterday.

Today I worked on the novel–where I left off yesterday, which was five and a half pages. Pushed it to seven and a half pages, and didn’t feel like doing much afterwards. It’s odd. I feel like I haven’t made the story a bizarro title, or at the least I’m straying away from bizarre elements. I feel as if I don’t know what I’m doing, and more than a little unsure I’ve done the material justice. I’m very frustrated at this moment, and I hope this will pass.

I should go look up some things I think influence the novel. It’s part action story, part science-fantasy comedy in my head. So maybe I need to distract myself with more of this genre.

Perhaps this is the perfect time to switch gears. Allow myself a real break from the novel, catch other stories up, and get things done that I put on hold. Why? I hate when my mind feels congested, and my creativity waxes and wanes. Also I need to be rid of this self-doubt eating at me. I have the sneaking suspicion the moment I say “I need to stop working on this novel,” and begin writing other projects, the novel will come back to me.

Creativity is weird, and I don’t think there’s a right way to create, so I best keep on trying things, and even randomly sneaking in a paragraph or two for the novel mainly because I want it to go places, besides in a file, and left to cool off for long periods of time.

Happy creative endeavors.


Today I’m still under the weather. I feel the sinus pressure near my jaw. Nose is off/on running, and I don’t want to do much. The meds can’t work fast enough. I just gotta wait out the discomfort. 

I am doing laundry, cause nothing beats fresh clothes, and I feel like I can at least do something positive while I sit and suffer.  

There are cheesy b-movies on Syfy network. I know I’m bored, cause I’m watching Piranaconda. This movie is so dumb, it takes the fun outta cheesy. How is that possible? I love silliness, so I’m curious as to how it doesn’t work for me. 

Dinoshark is on next. Y’all pray for me.

Happy creative endeavors. 

Family Matters

Family is weird. Sometimes they expect a lot from you, and hope you’ll be the stand-up guy they don’t want to be. Sometimes this drives me nuts as I don’t like the idea of being shoehorned into the position of paragon in the family.

I’m a person, and I need for people to respect that because I need my space, and I need for people to walk the line they wish me to toe. If you can’t do that, then don’t rely on my kindness, good nature, or being noble. I like being nice, but I can turn that off if need be.

Perhaps this will blow over, and I’m a laugh when I think of this nonsense. I am so done with the foolish notion that I need to be extra good when other fam members go in the opposite direction to be extra awful.

I need to figure out what works for me best, not worry about others, and implement my goals. Tired of dealing with stupidity.

Getting Burned (Thanks Bioware)

Bioware dropped a bit of a bomb on last gen console players today with the announcement the future DLC (downloaded content) for the game Dragon Age Inquisition will be for the Xbox 360, PS4, and PC players only.  As some know I am a huge Dragon Age fan. I am also last gen console player.

Instead of going on about my feelings, I have decided to express my disappointment in a parody song written to the music of “Oh Christmas Tree.”

Happy creative endeavors, peeps.

(sung to the music of “Oh Christmas Tree”)
lyrics by S. Raynard Haynes

You’re no longer made for PS3/Xbox 360.
You’re for new gen and PC exclusively

I played the game on last gen console,
Now I’m told, my platform’s toast.
Try a PS4 or XboxOne
If you have last gen, EA/Bioware says,
“you’re not the one.”

At this time, you aren’t for me.
You’re not always fan friendly.

The first clue was Jaws of Hakkon,
Couldn’t play the game, had to wait too damn long.
Patch the game but no one cares,
Announce we’re cut, with no fanfare.

We’re fans too, but unhappy.
That burn was so nasty.

©S. Raynard Haynes