The Artist: Part Two

So then I wondered, why am I apologizing for stuff that hasn’t been even shown to others yet?

It’s easy for me to want and wish for approval. The scale of likability goes up for material produced or published—but even then that’s no guarantee people will approve and like the material, or myself.  So this is the wrong way.

It’s also easy to fear my own potential. Have I gone too far? Did I go far enough? Did I learn my techniques properly enough to execute my visions?

There must be an unflinching bond of trust between the subject, the actual project, and myself.

I must be willing to accept the consequences of my works—misunderstood, or not. I don’t owe anyone anything, least of all, and apology for quality content. The only exception this rule is I go in half-assed, and the material suffers/meanders. That’s’ gross unprofessionalism.

Furthermore I have to believe that I will put together solid works from start to finish. If I’m willing to be responsible for the content, I must not rely on the content to sustain my ego. I’m not an artist because I need adoration.  I happen to love being creative, and don’t mind growing and sharing my material.

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The Artist: Part One

As I put away books, I stumbled across random bits of information. One of the subjects was about various artists, and their point of views.  While not intended as research, it fit the bill for that moment perfectly.

One thing I saw that was consistent, and reinforced by my own teachings, was that artists often act and react to subjects. They present their work, and rarely do they apologize. The material can be bold, audacious, engaging, exceptional or vulgar as all get out.

Regardless of the medium, artists can capture moments, stir responses from us (positive or negative), and even force us to confront elements that we may or may not wish to deal with or discuss at the time.

For example, a topic like child abuse, or racism can make us all squirm, but there usually is a point that’s presented and confronts us in some works. The topics can be as simple as eyes, shoelaces, or doors, but they still can be delivered in a variety of ways.

It reminds and reinforces me to create and deliver without feeling a need to sugar coat, sterilize, sanitize, or apologize about my own works. Furthermore, sometimes you really don’t have to elaborate. Let the material speak for itself.

Know Better, Do Better

One of my talents, as a writer, is to have a sense of humor in my stories. I tend to mock behaviors, attitudes, culture, and whatever subject crosses my imagination.  Humor engages my imagination, and it can be entertaining to poke fun at such topics.

I noticed when writing, a notion–which never fully left me–is the notion that humor isn’t the route to take with my writing. That said, I often fail hard at trying to be seen as a “serious” writer.

By “serious,” I mean writing in a sterilized, boring style, stripped of humor, and intolerant to anything that has aspects of entertainment or enjoyment.  I do this while being so ridiculously ineffective in storylines that in part, end up drying out.

I sorta mocked myself in this moment. I don’t mind self-deprecating humor, but a brother needed to be in on his own joke.

I wrote, in previous posts, how I was bad a creating protagonists/main characters because I made them safe, or they lived in a bubble. Part of making better characters, for me, is seeing where I undercut them—and myself. I wasn’t doing them, or myself a favor.

Creativity is a learning process, and if one develops a strength, then one should see the skill, acknowledge it, and explore it without killing your own asset. Self-sabotage is a beast, but in this case, learning and growing from these mistakes will help me improve my craft.

Writing will always be rewriting for me, however, I’d like the idea, premise, research, outline, and first draft of my stories—in all mediums—to start off with the authentic vision and voice this artist allows his talents to shine through without killing the creativity.

Frankly I can and will do better from this experience.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

The Dreaded Math Factoring

Going back over various notes I have for writing formats for TV and film, the one thing I noticed was a lot of them are vague.  Some of the books have been general, and left me to think that this is a mutable formula, but no.  After look back on what an actual TV writer said some facts were laid down, and I still needed to figure out some things.

TV hour long drama are five acts (I previously thought three acts). Technically both are right in that you will get a beginning, middle, and end.  You also are on average 55-60 pages for an hour-long show.

What you als need to factor in is that you have an A, B, and C storyline in those 55-60 pages.  A is your main character’s story, it is in every act/ B is the secondary story, and appears in all the acts.  C is your third story, and may have three scenes total.

This does not yet factor in the Teaser and Tags. Teaser is the start of the story. Tag is the end. So I tried to figure out how to format a TV script by page numbers. I’ll post in Part two of this to not make such a long post.

Happy creative endeavors.

Tuesday and Mom Thinks It’s Wednesday

It’s funny cause my Mom was telling me she was sure it’s Wednesday. I’m like, way to undermine my confidence –in jest, of course. Sometimes days seem to run together and blend, which can be frustrating, BUT is a small thing to overcome.

That said, it’s part of my day now, and I’ve gotten in the habit of noticing things and writing them down.  Why write them down? It’s part of writing, and often leads to other ideas.  For example; what would happen if we were thrown off not for a moment, but for years, and we have to put our life back together?

Or, what if a parent was undermining their child?  A bit dark, but I’m intrigued enough to want to explore the concept more (which started off as confusion and a joke)

It’s the stuff of creativity, which is the house I dwell in, so nothing’s too small to overlook, in regards to ideas and putting them down on paper.  Ideas are fine, but to take this further would require more thought and details to turn this from simple ideas to a premise that makes me, the writer, want to work more on it, BUT I know now there’s a start.

Happy creative endeavors.

I Can’t Believe It’s Not Monday

Well this has been a long time coming, and I’ve been feeling a bit pressed and dealing with some twists and turns.  First my schedule changed, so it’s been me lagging everywhere. Which time changes come different duties, and that kept me pressed.

I’ve been sleep deprived trying to manged my day, and not wanting to be lagging. I also gave up lattes for a couple of weeks because, it was too pricey, and the local coffee shop closed for two weeks, which made my decision easier to handle.

That said I don’t feel creative and often don’t, but this is a hot mess that needs to be fixed. I need to press myself forward and write more.  So, as always, I start with a blog post, and hope that I make some writing happen. I also may have to go back on my word and get a latte, or some coffee.

As always, happy creative endeavors.

I Lost My Wallet

Four words I never want to utter, nor think about. Yet today I did. Was sure my wallet was in my pocket, as I placed it there, or at least I thought I did when I was distracted.

Needless to say this morning as I knocked over some papers, bent to pick it up, I dropped my wallet in the process.  Without realizing this, I walked outta the house, got to work, and didn’t have a clue.

Of course, I needed to get some coffee, and I reached for my wallet, only to find it wasn’t there, and I had no clue as to where I misplaced it.  I retraced my steps, and it wasn’t outside.  I went into panic mode.  I got permission to go look for it, and went home thinking it may have fallen in my patio.

Over time I found where I dropped it, which was a relief, but I was rather dismayed that I could have potentially had my info and bank card stolen.  That’s all I need within the course of my day to be saddled with the drama of freezing my card, replacing my items, and just feeling ok.

Since I was able to calm down some, I’ve been trying to be grateful and should do some writing, which I haven’t, but for me, starting with a blog post helps put me in a writing frame of mind.

Happy creative endeavors.